Poetry

Fade To Black…

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fade to black rain

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Tell me…

Tell me I’ll break free from the machinations of melancholy…

Tell me the sun will shine in my heart…my soul once again…

That it will illuminate me from within radiating ever outward…

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Tell me my beloved words will return…

The wait is interminable…

Tumultuous thoughts scream in the quiescence their departure evoked…

Emotions evanesce unable to speak…to be heard…

Locked up…

Trapped inside…

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Memory’s echo or faint images of dream…

I can no longer differentiate…

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They long to leave me whilst simultaneously etching themselves

in my soul awaiting their departure…

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Yet my voice is trapped within…

Without words it is powerless…

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Deafening silence overwhelms…

In solitary desperation my soul softly whispers…

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Be still…

Breathe…

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For it is not disconcertion of spirit that will elicit their return…

Rather…it is in the still of night…

When you allow all of your worries…

To fade to black…

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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

Undone….

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Undone 2

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Procession of emotions…

Steady succession of thoughts, so rapid they are unfathomable…

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My mind begs surrender to illusion of peace…

Longing for tranquility of thought creating serenity in my soul…

Momentary glimpses of how the scattered pieces will join together…

One by one a blurry picture of future is forged…

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The quest for answers takes me down the path of distraction…

Unexpected knowledge…

New pieces always adding to the potpourri of thought…

Mirage of the new world…

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Conflicted confusion invades serenity…

Discovered distraction surrounds me…where does it dwell?

More illusion or just a dream within a dream?

Did I unknowingly discover these new pieces?

Adding to the journey of solution…

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I close my eyes and ponder…

Trying to find answers…

They are not forthcoming…

Purposely hidden from me…

Faux reality…

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Surreal scenarios leave me aching for illumination…

Conflicted distraction my new companion…

The very lens through which I see myself…

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Tonight…

I am undone…

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In A Moment…

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       In A Moment…

     You can laugh…

      You can cry….

          You can behold the most beautiful things…

     You can have your breath taken away…

       You can experience excruciating agony…

      You can cry tears of joy…

            You can be given devastating news..

      You can smile…

      You can create unforgettable memories…

      You can fall in love…

      You can brighten someones day…

      You can give your heart away…

      You can walk away from love…

      You can break a heart…

      You can mend a heart…

       All this and more you can do in a moment…

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      Cherish every moment…

       For it’s not how much time you have…

      It’s the moments you fill it with…

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    ΅∼ ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      ∼΅

Ligo Haibun Challenge ~ Illusion ~

~ This is my first attempt at the Ligo Haibun Challenge for more information and to see the other offerings click here  ~

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This is my illusory image…the projection of myself. A paradox within the very masquerade I portray. I am not that which you think you see when you look at me. Quite the contrary…I am that which I choose to see. Reflection’s surreality is the lie. If you look with intent…truly discerning in your journey to discovery of what is or is not real. Then your rewards will be enlightenment, illumination, understanding. Even more so…you will see what I see…beyond the façade…the charade built over the years of life’s trials and tribulations…The interpretation of faux projection bearing no semblance of truth. You will see so far beyond the layers of lie…so as to truly see yourself when you look into me…your mirror.

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mirror illusion

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masquerade’s lie hidden
 truth impatiently waiting
mirror’s illumination

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      ∼ ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      ∼

Waiting For The Rain…

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girl in rain

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On the precipice of reality’s revelation….
Staring out at the majesty of the sea…
Thoughts wander aimlessly..

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My life’s imprint…
Introspective…
On the cusp of inspiration…
Illusory images of illumination…

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Enigmatic longing…
Destiny ever so slowly revealed…
I wish as the waves roll on oblivious of me…
I wish for epiphany…
Enlightenment…
Knowledge of Fate’s intent…

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Contemplation of the ocean… timeless…mysterious…immortal…
Lost in the rhythm if its reaching to and fro…
Enchanted by its gifts which permeate all my senses…
Glimpses of future tempting me to push further…

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I wait for any answer to my quest…
I wait for direction…
I wait for peace…
I wait for the rain to fall…

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    Paradigm…
 
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Diaphanous Dreamscape….

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girl white rose

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I look back trying to find illumination…
Seeking my inspiration…
Pivotal points of perception…
I search for my words…
They’ve left me in the desert of my reality…

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Transport me to my dreamscape…
Let me reside there…
Where words float around me like butterflies of serenity…
Whispering promises of peace…
A balm to soothe my soul…
My self expression…needing release…aching for it…

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I search the depths of my heart…
I see the tears…
The sadness…
The scars I choose to wear inside…
Remembrance of days gone…memories packed away…

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I see with hindsight a succession of happenings…
I see the struggle…
The very battle for my sanity ~ end with the discovery of my voice…
My words…
Each little nuance distinctively mine…

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I see pieces of me creating my sanctuary…
My oasis built from the words woven in my mind…
All ways there waiting for me….
A bouquet of thought…

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 This is my diaphanous dreamscape…
A reflection of me…
My creation…
Born from the ashes of my former life…
Now the foundation on which I rebuild….
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Blanket of Night…

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One Night...

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Lying under the blanket of night…

Stars sparkle their way through the black backdrop…

Creating illusions of images to please each soul…

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Waiting for a star to fall…

Waiting to wish my secret wish…

I stare intently…hoping…

They are oblivious of me and my desirous intention…

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Still I watch…

Still I wait…

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Longing for that one fleeting moment…

They continue their twinkling show…

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Still I wait…

Still I watch…

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Night…

Your playground…

My wishing place…

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΅ 〜 ೋღ Christina ~ ღೋ      〜΅ 

Wipe Away My Tears…

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Wipe Away My Tears...

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Melancholy descends…
Enveloping me…
Past and present collide…
Contemplation in the aftermath…

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Past…present…future…
Coalesce into conflicted confusion…

 I see the light faintly through the black of night…beckoning me to its peace…
I sit…ponder…feel…

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Tumultuous emotions inducing me to feel everything at once…
Happy, despair, joy, hope, fear…
The tears fall unwillingly…
They ignore my plea to stop…
Mirrored images recreate remembrance of every detail I’ve fought so hard to forget…

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Life is fleeting…
In a heartbeat everything changes…

My strength is a façade…a mask worn long enough to convince me of it’s transparent deception…

Please…wipe away my tears…
Be strong for me…

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Let me smile through to my soul…
Let that happiness waiting in the peripheral fill me once again…
Let the sunshine in…

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

Enigma…

Each day we face similar choices depending on daily scenario’s. Recently…I have been reminded of how I was feeling a year ago and so with that I present….  ~ Enigma…

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path

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 There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

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I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

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The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

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I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

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Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

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Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

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  ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅ 

Imprint…

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Imprint

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I never thought it could be like this…

I never thought you could imprint so strongly and firmly fixed to me…in me… that I find it hard to think of anything…now that you’re gone…

I’ll always remember how you came to me…how you wove into each facet of my life…with so much happiness and joy…I smile just thinking of yours…

Your laugh…your embrace…the taste of your kiss…memories so vivid and strong they follow me to sleep… where dreams and impossibilities rule…where time and distance do not exist except as a construct to recreate each perfect moment we shared…

Apropos… for you are my dream…a dream I could touch…could revel in for but a brief time before I had to let you go…

With promises…love and a kiss…you were gone…leaving a hole inside me where you dwelt completely…too briefly…

I shall fill myself with each memory…reliving them to cement them inside my heart…my very soul…

Until…

You return to me and once again dance me to the stars…

Once again ignite every wondrous and magical feeling…

Once again tell me I am yours…as you are mine…

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           ೋ  Christina ~ ೋ