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Nocturnal wind…
Autumn’s essence envelopes me…
Infusing my senses…
I see how different words are bestowed with a sublime radiance of varying hues of color…
Emotional gradation…
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I observe my palette of words very carefully…
One mustn’t rush…
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Slowly I begin to paint…first one then another…
I step back and look at the revealing of this new painting…
This creation of words blending into something wondrous…
Something hitherto unknown…
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Time passes…
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I look again…
I close my eyes…
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I feel the tumultuous gathering…
The machinations of my senses coalescing into words…
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Their birth a beautiful rendition of everything combining at once…
As if time has no meaning here…
Past, present, future collide into my Phantasmagoric Dreamscape…
Joining…rejoining…connecting…
Locking together as though they already know how they are to combine…
As if they each have their own purpose, thought, desire…
To be seen, read, understood…
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Epiphany…
Am I their painter…
Or are they mine?
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If you would like me to read this to you…
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I thought it would be fun to revisit a previously posted poem…only with me reading it this time.
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My dear friends!
I know time has passed while I have been continuing to fight those fierce inner battles…but… I’ve been making progress too. So, now that it’s complete, not only am I back, but I can finally share my incredible news with you!
I’ve been hard at work these past months getting my first book, an anthology of my poetry, ready for you!
As you can see off to the right a pretty little photo of my book (that will take you to Amazon). For 5 days, September 3rd-7th, the ebook version will be free, after that you can purchase it on Kindle or paperback (available now) via Amazon. Also, on Kindle Unlimited you can read it for free as well.
As for the donate button…
I am asking for your help my friends…for your support. Every dollar you so graciously give goes to my roof fund. I am in desperate need of a new one and you could help. I’m trying to raise 1,800.00 as soon as possible. I’ll update weekly to share our progress making this happen!!
Whether you want to just read my book, make a donation, sprinkle me with Amazon stars, or share the word to anyone you think might like it…you have my eternal gratitude.
For all donations $50 dollars and over I’ll mail you a physical, signed copy of my book, with a personal message from me to you and sealed with supremely epic gratitude!
It was the incredible encouragement I received over the years that enabled me to do this and I just want to say that I am so thankful for each of you!! For your loving support and encouragement, thank you again, and again!
Stay tuned for progress updates on some of the other projects I’m working on. I’ll share some updates and funny stories about my journey through self-publishing, as well as a couple poems I’m getting ready for you!
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That last desperate flamboyance of wallowing in a world of wishes…
Blissfully ignorant…
Only to wake to the insidious lie hidden in time…
Brought forward to wake you from the otherwhere of this evanescent dream…
Dividing itself from reality through a gossamer veil…
Echoes of reminiscence whisper from the other side…
Memory by memory…
Fading…
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Paradigm shift…
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΅〜 ೋ Christina〜 ೋ 〜΅
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I look back trying to find illumination… Seeking my inspiration… Pivotal points of perception… I search for my words… They’ve left me in the desert of my reality…΅∼ ❀∼΅
Transport me to my dreamscape… Let me reside there… Where words float around me like butterflies of serenity… Whispering promises of peace… A balm to soothe my soul… My self expression…needing release…aching for it…΅∼ ❀∼΅
I search the depths of my heart… I see the tears… The sadness… The scars I choose to wear inside… Remembrance of days gone…memories packed away…΅∼ ❀ ∼΅
I see with hindsight a succession of happenings… I see the struggle… The very battle for my sanity ~ end with the discovery of my voice… My words… Each little nuance distinctively mine…΅∼ ❀ ∼΅
I see pieces of me creating my sanctuary… My oasis built from the words woven in my mind… All ways there waiting for me…. A bouquet of thought…΅∼ ❀ ∼΅
This is my diaphanous dreamscape… A reflection of me… My creation… Born from the ashes of my former life… Now the foundation on which I rebuild…. ~ ~΅〜 ೋ ♥ ೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋ Christina〜 ೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋ ♥ ೋ 〜΅
Reflections of silence resonate… Dissonant deliberation… Among the ethereal scintilla… Echoes speak in deafening taciturnity… Melody of Silence…΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
Through the maze of countless corridors… Myriad of memories… A forest of dreams…of hopes… Therein lies my hidden sanctuary… Dormant… Awaiting its incendiary denouement…΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
Ephemeral illumination… Fragments of time reminisce… Whispering in the familiar shadows… Euphony… ~΅〜 ೋ ♥ ೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋ Christina〜 ೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
It begins with a thought…
A revelation…
Usually bound in truth…
Then it propagates endless pieces of an unsolvable puzzle…
It worms its way through you…
Permeating Peace…
Replacing it with doubt…fear…
Insidious imaginings…
Every thought becomes tainted with it…
It increases exponentially…
Invasive…
Intruding every facet of your life…
Your dreams once made you strong…
Now they’ve become the manifestation of your subliminal madness…
Become waking confusion…
Conflict…
Psychological war…
Devastation…
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A small ray of light shines through…
Amber sunrise…
You feel its warmth reach for you…
You watch it ascend wondering if its golden rays can reach you…
So far buried in your darkness…
It whispers…
Beckoning…
Inexorably…
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΅〜 ೋღ Christina ~ ೋღ 〜΅
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Can you read the space between my words?
Though unsaid…perhaps subtly felt?
The very tool of my destruction…
Simultaneously my resurrection…
Delicately haunting…
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The more rare…
The more innovative…
Probable possibilities of persuasion…
Obscuring me…
Shielding…
Protecting…
Can I tempt you?
Fascinate you?
Entice you?
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Would you look beyond this masquerade I’ve so cleverly crafted?
Would you truly seek me with an exigent desire to unequivocally know me?
Would you rather believe the interpretation of my rendition…
Or keep me here where my words only serve…
Emulation’s illumination…
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Should you wish it…
I am here…
Hidden…
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΅〜 ೋღ Christina ~ ೋღ 〜΅
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∼ Reconstructing Christina ∼ 