
΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
If you would like me to read this to you…
΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
If you would like me to read this to you…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
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Lying under the blanket of night…
Stars sparkle their way through the black backdrop…
Creating illusions of images to please each soul…
Waiting for a star to fall…
Waiting to wish my secret wish…
I stare intently…hoping…
They are oblivious of me and my desirous intention…
Still I watch…
Still I wait…
Longing for that one fleeting moment…
They continue their twinkling show…
Still I wait…
Still I watch…
Night…
Your playground…
My wishing place…
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΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
If you would like me to read this to you… ~
΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
Christina 〜
Lost in a requiem of chaos…
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A dream within a dream…dissimilar yet simultaneously similar as if pages from her life’s book…torn apart, reassembled haphazardly.
While, improbable…nevertheless, making a new whole from the sum of its disjointed parts.
Past and present fragments collide…
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Cataclysm…
΅〜 ೋ ♥ ೋ 〜΅
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I’ve been away and I’ve missed you, each….one…of…you. This is my way of attempting to condense the past few months.
The inherent tendency to withdraw is fierce in me. I’m working on it.
I’m fighting it.
I’m grateful…so very grateful, for *you*.
΅〜 ೋ Christina〜 ೋ 〜΅
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΅∼ ೋღ ♥ ღೋ ∼΅
I look back trying to find illumination… Seeking my inspiration… Pivotal points of perception… I search for my words… They’ve left me in the desert of my reality…΅∼ ❀∼΅
Transport me to my dreamscape… Let me reside there… Where words float around me like butterflies of serenity… Whispering promises of peace… A balm to soothe my soul… My self expression…needing release…aching for it…΅∼ ❀∼΅
I search the depths of my heart… I see the tears… The sadness… The scars I choose to wear inside… Remembrance of days gone…memories packed away…΅∼ ❀ ∼΅
I see with hindsight a succession of happenings… I see the struggle… The very battle for my sanity ~ end with the discovery of my voice… My words… Each little nuance distinctively mine…΅∼ ❀ ∼΅
I see pieces of me creating my sanctuary… My oasis built from the words woven in my mind… All ways there waiting for me…. A bouquet of thought…΅∼ ❀ ∼΅
This is my diaphanous dreamscape… A reflection of me… My creation… Born from the ashes of my former life… Now the foundation on which I rebuild…. ~ ~΅〜 ೋ ♥ ೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋ Christina〜 ೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
Cacophony…Noise….Disquiet….
It is too much…
All of it…
Let me be still…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
I want to think my quiet thoughts…
Surround sound of silence…
Let comfort be my pillow…
Tranquility my blanket….
΅〜 ❁〜΅
If words were my ocean…
let me dip my toes in the pool of serenity….
let them swirl about soothing me…
whisper intrigue…
as they entwine to form expression of emotion…
A thought…a feeling…a wish…
Sublime superfluity…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
They encircle me…
Filling me with wonder at their joining…
Fascination at their power…
Passionate asseveration…crystalline purity…
Yes…please…
Let me be…
Just a little longer…
΅〜 ❁〜΅
For If I am very still…
They come to me…
dance for me…bring me tears…delight…placidity…
a quixotic smile at their unique denouement…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
Yes…please…
Let me be…
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΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋღ Christina ~ ೋღ 〜
΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
Colors of my soul…
Invisible…
Barely there…
Unseen…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
Whisper lies cloaked in half truths…
Solemn cadence
Vestiges of madness…
On the crest of a fallen tear…
Encapsulating every hurt…every fear…every disappointment…
As it traces its way down my cheek…it brings forth clarity…insight…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
Hope long suppressed struggles against its oppression…
Begging freedom…
Promising everything…
Seeking no remuneration…
Only opportunity to see itself fulfilled…
To bask in its beautiful rendition…
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
To turn what was ostensibly opaque…into vivacious vibrancy…
To shine…
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΅〜 ೋღ ♥ ღೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋღ Christina ~ ೋღ 〜΅