Silhouette….

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That was the day the sun stopped shining…

That was the day she realized she was dreaming…

Not living…

She was but a semblance of her former self…

An illusion created to protect…

Inevitably…

That very protection became self-induced isolation…

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She had believed everything…

Trusted everyone…

Perhaps naivety reigned…

Perhaps….so very many things…

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Falling into the very disillusionment that woke her to Life’s reality…

She welcomes this descent…

She knows it well…

She’s comfortable here surrounded by familiar phantoms…

All the disconsolate whispers…

Shadow’s silhouette casting the backdrop for a prior dream…

Antecedent of every hope, desire, aspiration…

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She will not cry…

Not one tear…

For they are hers alone…

And only when she is alone will they appear…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

Blissful Oblivion…

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Love me no more…
Love me no less…
I cannot compete with the illusion I’ve created… projected…
I am not all you see…
My true self lies hidden in oblivion…
Buried inside…safe…protected…
I’ve worn this mask long enough to almost fool myself…

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Don’t you see me?
Can you see beyond my charade?
Do you even want to…
I suppose that is the driving question…

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I am a jaded dreamer…
Hopeless romantic…
Vulnerable…
Hesitant…
Cautious…
Shattered…
Reconstructing…
A plethora of words…none will do…

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Blissful oblivion…is where I remain….
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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

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Undone….

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Procession of emotions…

Steady succession of thoughts, so rapid they are unfathomable…

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My mind begs surrender to illusion of peace…

Longing for tranquility of thought creating serenity in my soul…

Momentary glimpses of how the scattered pieces will join together…

One by one a blurry picture of future is forged…

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The quest for answers takes me down the path of distraction…

Unexpected knowledge…

New pieces always adding to the potpourri of thought…

Mirage of the new world…

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Conflicted confusion invades serenity…

Discovered distraction surrounds me…where does it dwell?

More illusion or just a dream within a dream?

Did I unknowingly discover these new pieces?

Adding to the journey of solution…

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I close my eyes and ponder…

Trying to find answers…

They are not forthcoming…

Purposely hidden from me…

Faux reality…

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Surreal scenarios leave me aching for illumination…

Conflicted distraction my new companion…

The very lens through which I see myself…

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Tonight…

I am undone…

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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

Ligo Haibun Challenge ~ Illusion ~

~ This is my first attempt at the Ligo Haibun Challenge for more information and to see the other offerings click here  ~

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This is my illusory image…the projection of myself. A paradox within the very masquerade I portray. I am not that which you think you see when you look at me. Quite the contrary…I am that which I choose to see. Reflection’s surreality is the lie. If you look with intent…truly discerning in your journey to discovery of what is or is not real. Then your rewards will be enlightenment, illumination, understanding. Even more so…you will see what I see…beyond the façade…the charade built over the years of life’s trials and tribulations…The interpretation of faux projection bearing no semblance of truth. You will see so far beyond the layers of lie…so as to truly see yourself when you look into me…your mirror.

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mirror illusion

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masquerade’s lie hidden
 truth impatiently waiting
mirror’s illumination

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Blanket of Night…

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One Night...

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Lying under the blanket of night…

Stars sparkle their way through the black backdrop…

Creating illusions of images to please each soul…

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Waiting for a star to fall…

Waiting to wish my secret wish…

I stare intently…hoping…

They are oblivious of me and my desirous intention…

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Still I watch…

Still I wait…

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Longing for that one fleeting moment…

They continue their twinkling show…

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Still I wait…

Still I watch…

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Night…

Your playground…

My wishing place…

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΅ 〜 ೋღ Christina ~ ღೋ      〜΅ 

Edge of Peripheral…

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Peripheral

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I can almost see you
I know I don’t know you…
Simultaneously, I know everything about you…
You are in my dreams…
In my thoughts…
We meet there occasionally…
There is the known and unknown…
That magical seductive dance that ignites my imagination…
Recognition….
There you are…
Waiting for me…
On the edge of peripheral…

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Undone…

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Procession of emotions…

Steady succession of thoughts, so rapid they are unfathomable…

~*~

My mind begs surrender to illusion of peace.

Longing for tranquillity of thought creating serenity in my soul.

Momentary glimpses of how the scattered pieces will join together.

One by one a blurry picture of future is forged.

~*~

The quest for answers takes me down the path of distraction…

Unexpected knowledge…

New pieces always adding to the potpourri of thought…

Mirage of the new world.

~*~

Conflicted confusion invades serenity…

Discovered distraction surrounds me…where does it dwell?

More illusion or just a dream within a dream?

Did I unknowingly discover these new pieces?

Adding to the journey of solution…

~*~

I close my eyes and ponder…

Trying to find answers…

They are not forthcoming…

Purposely hidden from me…

Faux reality…

~*~

Surreal scenarios leave me aching for illumination…

Conflicted distraction my new companion.

The very lens through which I see myself.

~*~

Tonight…

I am undone…

~*~

copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee