Captivated…

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΅〜  ೋღ  ♥  ღೋ      〜΅

You look into me…
Me into you…
We meet there in the middle…
Captivated…

 ΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ      〜΅    

Need drives its own insistent desire to inception…
Embraced in this perfect moment…
Held by the enigmatic nature of will…
Unable to look away…
Locked in place….
Locked in time…

΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ      〜΅    

Don’t look away…
Keep me here as I memorize your soul with mine…
Let us stay suspended in wonder…
Before Reality’s ocean rips us apart…

΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ      〜΅    

We are helpless in its wake…
Fate’s cruelty using us as pawns for pleasure…
Neither here nor there…

΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ      〜΅    

Our moment permanently fixed in the stars for all time…
Love…without completion…without end…

΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ      〜΅    

Forever captivated…
~

΅〜 ೋღ  ღೋ     〜΅

    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

~

΅〜 ೋღ  ღೋ     〜΅

╰⊰ This poem is the last in a series of four originally posted back in January 2013. For more information please see this post which explains my bringing #ThrowbackThursday here to my blog. This series marked a pivotal transition in my writing which shortly thereafter became known as my “Dreamscape”.

It is has been so much fun to look back in time this past week with you. Many of you have been with me from the beginning of this journey, some have joined my journey along the way…

I wish to extend, again, my gratitude and voluminous appreciation for each and every one of you. Your encouragement and support has truly impacted my life in so many ways I cannot even express.

Thank you…ever so much! ⊱╮

~

Gorgeous photo by ily623 Deviantart

All You Wish For…

 

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΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ     〜΅

I can be all you wish for…all you need…
I can recreate myself into your most sought after desires…
I can fulfill you in ways others cannot…
In ways others have never been able to before…
I can make you feel so loved, so longed for…so desired…

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I can become your dream…
Your muse…
I can inspire you in ways hitherto unknown…
I can make you feel like a King…
I can love you with all that I am… 

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How I can do this?  
Because I am a woman… 

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We all possess these attributes and so much more…
If we will but allow love to permeate us… 
There is one caveat…to this we do for you…

΅〜〜΅ 

We must be so loved in return…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ     〜΅

 Even more…
We must be willing to risk it all…
For love…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ     〜΅

       ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

~

Gorgeous Photo by LadyDarkRaven 〜

What of Love?

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

I’ve been away for a while…lost in a world of words….or trying to be in between life’s demands. All of this got me to thinking about my collection of words… how it is growing exponentially with each new author I experience. More than that…I realize that Phase One of my Reconstruction process was finding my voice…which I have done via words.

I suppose one would call this Phase Two…where I explore this new enigmatic and magical world where it is just I and words. Where I collect them like one would pick wild flowers in a field of luxurious splendor. That being said…I bring you my disclaimer which will officially initiate Phase Two of Reconstructing Christina… ~

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This is my Word Journal ~ Where I collect words, phrases, etc. Unceasingly adding to my repertoire.

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

I could write of any thing…
Of every thing…
Hopes, fears, emotions…all of it…

Staring at the blank screen I think of my experiences…my past, present, future…
All coalesce into a myriad of thoughts and feelings…

I think of books I’ve read…of the greatest, most-gifted authors who write prose as easily as you and I breathe…of the beloved characters they’ve created…
I think of friends…of family…
Their thoughts, feelings, emotions on experiences in their lives…

I realize I needn’t write merely of my own small inconsequential existence…

Quite the contrary…
There are no ambivalent…ubiquitous…limitations..
I can write of all things…any thought…any emotion…any experience…
Words transcend…transport…our souls to the familiar…simultaneously to the hitherto unknown…

And what of love?

Universally speaking we’ve all tasted it…felt it knock us off our feet…or at the very least we’ve dreamt of it…what it would feel like in Love’s embrace…enveloped by all the very varied vicissitudes of that holy grail of emotions…

Yes…I shall share with you…dear reader…all of my experience with each and every emotion…be it mine be it anonymous…or pure fiction… For in the end…we all experience all of life eventually…some things exquisitely unique…some universal..

     ΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

So, I would politely ask you to not equate my coming pieces referring to only myself…
Instead please think of my words as relating to us all…
In one form or another…

That is my wondrous challenge, given to myself by me..to write in such a manner so as to be relatable by all…
For we are inherently…at some level or another…all the same…
Uniquely similar…

~

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Preponderance Of Maybe…

  ΅〜  ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

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Maybe fills Uncertainty…

Wrapped in risk…

What if’s abound…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Machinations of love occupy thought…

Permeate senses….

Resonating reason leaving a trail of doubt…

Maybe prowls lurking…

Night’s shadow…

Unceasingly seeking the entrance to Heart’s fortress…

The path I fear to tread…

Caution in bold relief on Soul’s frieze…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Love…potential probabilities…risk…life…safety…reason…

Internal discourse…

Preponderance of maybe…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Left behind in the warmth of embrace…

Doubt dissipates…

Forgotten on the shores of Trust’s consistent building…

Daring me to walk on…

Pushing beyond that fear which I hide behind so well…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

One kiss…

Elucidation sets me free…

~

   ΅~ ೋ ೋ ~΅

 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

Intoxicating Indulgence…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

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(I dream of you….)

An unfathomable force drawing me insistently to you….

Concupiscence…

My dreams sustain me until you can…

Tumultuous torrent of wonderment coalescing begging indulgence…

Your addicting gaze….

Provocative exhilaration igniting me…

Decadent desires unknown ache to be known…

Each day pulling us closer…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Such is your effect on me….

Your love fills me…

Peaceful waves of serenity caress me…

Perfection of paramount proportions…

Longing…alluring…enticing…

Unceasing extravagant enchantment…

You have imprinted on me….

(I am forever changed…)

I am yours…you are mine…

Only one thing remains….

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Intoxicating Indulgence….

~

  ΅~ ೋ ೋ ~΅

 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

Luminous Knight ~ A Reading ~

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Decadent daze…

A Soul’s dream

Intrinsically unique…

Unceasing in your power…

Curiously wondrous…

I marvel at you…

Reflections of constellations in your eyes…

Mirrored images of desire…

Bewitching…

Take my hand Love…Hold me close…

Dance me to the edge of this dream and back again…

Your name on my lips as you intoxicate me…

Remembrance resonates…

Magnetizing…

Fascination lights our way from the beginning of this…To the end…

Together…Entwined…

Enrapt in euphoria’s exquisite essence…

Blissful oblivion…

We shall surf the stars…

Rendezvous with celestial captivation…

Sweet surrender to forever…Held in moments of perfection…

Your heart to mine…Mine to yours….

Unceasing brilliance binding me inexorably to you…

Exhilaration permeates as delight evokes devotion to Souls’ completion…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Luminous Knight…

~

 ΅~ ೋ ೋ ~΅

΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

Take Me As I Am…

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Take me as I am…

Talk with me…

Know me…

Understand me…

Love me…

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Look deep into my eyes…

Caress my cheek…

Tell me I’m the only one who can make your heart sing…

The only one who can fill your soul…

Tell me there is no other who tempts you…

Tell me I’m special…unique…desirable…irreplaceable…

΅∼ ೋღ ღೋ     ∼΅ 

Touch me softly…

With the warmth of your love whisper your adoration…

With a kiss…show me your love…

your devotion…your desire…

΅∼ ೋღ ღೋ     ∼΅ 

Take me as I am…

All my faults…insecurities…fears…

Give me all of you…

In return…

΅∼ ೋღ ღೋ     ∼΅ 

You shall have all of me…

~

΅~ ೋ ೋ ~΅

΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

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Gorgeous Photo By  ~ Scott Callow Deviantart

I’ll Be Gone…

΅〜  ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅

Moment                 

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I’m afraid to love…

To want…to wish…

Dreams…

Hopes…

All of it…

   ΅〜 〜΅     

I feel you calling me to you…

I feel your desire…

I feel your love…

΅〜 〜΅

You’re my strength…  

My knight…

My dream…

΅〜 〜΅

Take my hand…

Pull me close…

Hold me tight…

Don’t let go…

΅〜 〜΅

I’ll love you so well nothing will compare…

I’ll be everything you wish…everything you desire…

I’ll spoil you so well…none but me will

fulfill you so absolutely…

so completely…

΅〜 〜΅

You’ll wonder what I want…

What I need…

How you can fulfill me…

You’ll ask me…

΅〜 〜΅  

I’ll change the subject…

I’ll take a step back…

You’ll ask me to open up…

To talk to you…

I’ll be further away…

΅〜 〜΅

Take my hand…

Pull me close…

Hold me tight…

Don’t let go…

΅〜 〜΅

Kiss me our last…

For when you wake…

I’ll be gone…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅   

Too afraid to risk it all…again

~

΅~ ೋ ೋ ~΅

΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

~

The above piece was purely a fictional foray…

or as I like to call it…”Fun With Fiction

΅~ ೋ  ೋ ~΅

My Very Essence…

΅〜  ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

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  I write because I love words…

More than that…

I am utterly infatuated, fascinated, increasingly enamored with them…

their ability to express anything and everything one would desire…

 So very many decadently delightful and exquisitely evocative ways…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

I write to release pent up thoughts…emotions, hopes, fears, dreams…

Endless expressions of me…

Who I am…why I am…where I wish to go in this journey of life…

΅〜  ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

Not only is writing my catharsis, it is unceasingly shaping me…

I quite literally am writing myself into who I am…

who I am becoming…who I will be…

My personal revolution…

A metamorphosis via a plethora of beloved words…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

If you wonder why I write..the above is the best answer I’m able to give you…

Perhaps that also explains why I write so often of the inability to

express words exactly how or when I would wish…

To put words to the vague…the intangible…the elusive…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

Some people call it writer’s block…

I call it amputation…

Without my beloved words…

I lose myself…my voice…my very essence…

I am only as unique as the words I choose…

The emotions…the feelings conjured by their purposeful placement.

It is my insistent compulsion to continually do so in ever more very varied ways…

΅〜 ೋღ ღೋ      〜΅    

You need look no further…

For this is who I am…wholly and completely me…

To be found…

In each word I write…

~

΅~ ೋ ೋ ~΅

΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

   

Blissful Oblivion…

΅〜 ೋღ  ♥  ღೋ      〜΅

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΅〜 ೋღ  ♥  ღೋ      〜΅

Love me no more…
Love me no less…
I cannot compete with the illusion I’ve created… projected…
I am not all you see…
My true self lies hidden in oblivion…
Buried inside…safe…protected…
I’ve worn this mask long enough to almost fool myself…

΅〜 〜΅ 

Don’t you see me?
Can you see beyond my charade?
Do you even want to…
I suppose that is the driving question…

΅〜 〜΅ 

I am a jaded dreamer…
Hopeless romantic…
Vulnerable…
Hesitant…
Cautious…
Shattered…
Reconstructing…
A plethora of words…none will do…

΅∼ ೋ ೋ ∼΅

Blissful oblivion…is where I remain….
~

΅ ೋ ೋ ΅

 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

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