
Alchemical Prose…

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╰⊰✿ I had a process. A writing process. The words I would take in from everything around me…books, songs, the interwebs, a conversation…they would join and rejoin and then form into something I crafted, shaped, molded into a poem….my version of a poem. I never really did think of my poems as traditional. More prose-like. More unique, or so I tried. Yet…they always felt lacking to me in some way. Although, you guys…you beautiful souls would comment and say the most unfathomably wondrous things to me. I would breathe a sigh of relief as though I had been holding my breath until reading your feedback. It was absolutely glorious. Addictive.
During my hiatus I’ve been reading, as mentioned in the last post, but I’ve also been watching, learning…becoming thirstier for even more knowledge…other writers. Writers I admire. Some are famous in the traditional ‘household name’ sort of way, and some maybe you’ve never heard of. Maybe you have. I’ll gladly share if you ask, but this is about me learning what they do. How they do it. How they consistently write their books. How they stay so very focused. How they manage to juggle the online distractions of Facebook Pages, Twitter, Google+, Instagram. How they manage to create their art and yet stay in touch, grow their connections, day in and day out. I’ve learned so much, just enough to make me dare to think I might be able to emulate them, in their commitment…their diligence to their passion to create and stay connected.
I’ve experimented. I’ve been making amazing friends via my Facebook Page which is over there to your right (bottom if you’re on your phone) and also on Twitter. Instagram is a new excursion for me and one I’m not fully versed in yet, but I am trying. I’m putting it all out there. My kids, my crazy chaotic life. Mostly though, I’m trying to understand how to connect and create. I’ve not written anything longer than a Facebook Post or Tweet in the months I’ve been away, well…maybe an email counts as writing. If so, then I suppose I have written.
I have also, now that I’m thinking about it, written a few ‘stream of conscious’ book reviews on Goodreads. I call them such because they were just like this post. Me just typing my thoughts as they come to mind…that’s it. I don’t know if they’re any good, that wasn’t my intention when writing them. They were just my thoughts and feelings on them when I finished reading. I’ve not reread them, knowing me…I’d attempt to rewrite them. I’m learning it’s okay to just write and then let it go. Exactly my hopes for this post.
A few of the aforementioned books have touched me so very deeply I cannot, even in this overly long post, express their impact on my entire way of thinking…of myself, of my life, of my overwhelming desire to write, of my connections with each of you. I feel as though the years of conditioning that life has put me through has fallen away, so to speak, and left me free to recreate…reconstruct myself, yet again. An absolute metamorphosis.
I would very much like to continue to be so free thinking with what I share with you. I would like to share what I’m learning, what I desire to learn, what I’m reading, what I long to read, what I’m thinking, and so very much more. I imagine it will be different for you as well as for me and may take some getting used to. However, through this I very much hope and wish you gain a better insight into my world….and I in yours….
Until next time…~ ✿⊱╮
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This is not a typical style of post for me, but hey…we all have to mix things up every now and then right?! I would never wish to become predictable. I am writing this to share some exciting news! First, will be a gradual changing of my last name. I have given this much thought… the tipping point for me was that after much needed and cherished encouragement, I am indeed beginning to compile my poems for a book.
That alone is a rather frightening endeavor for me….frightening and exquisitely exhilarating at the same time! You each have been so very amazing and supportive… I wish to thank you all ever so much for continuing to read, like, comment, follow….this journey. So…while the title for said book is up for debate in my mind…my name is not.
I have considered how you all know me first and foremost as “Christina ~” and secondly…”Christina Brownlee”. For reasons too numerous to explain, I have decided to take back my maiden name for this literary journey I’m embarking on.
Going forward I will be…on this blog then expanding to all the various social media sites, and most especially for any future book(s)…known as…Christina M. Gregory 〜
It is my most fervent desire, even if my book only sees two sales…it will be with the name my mother gave me, one that includes my brother…his wife and family, and my father…the family who was there in all ways during my darkest hours…it is their name I wish to represent. Besides, I lived with that name for over half my life and I am rather fond of it!
Now that I’ve shared my exciting news re: a poetry anthology with you, I will also share that I am full of ideas simmering for other projects…some I won’t mention (yet) because I do love to be enigmatic.
I have another reason for sharing with you all and that my friends is *Accountability*. I know the moment I post this…I am now accountable to see this through. I will not be able to ‘conveniently’ forget, get overwhelmed, too nervous, etc.〜 Though, I do beg for your patience as being a single mom raising 3 kids while running a household does put tremendous demands on my ability to have much free time.
I will share a small hint because I adore you all…I chose this particular title for a reason…the hint? I will use this title for further updates, musings (maybe), and…well….perhaps a few surprises along the way…
Again, I wish to thank each of you for your cherished support and encouragement over these past two years. You are priceless!
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I write because I love words…
More than that…
I am utterly infatuated, fascinated, increasingly enamored with them…
their ability to express anything and everything one would desire…
So very many decadently delightful and exquisitely evocative ways…
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I write to release pent up thoughts…emotions, hopes, fears, dreams…
Endless expressions of me…
Who I am…why I am…where I wish to go in this journey of life…
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Not only is writing my catharsis, it is unceasingly shaping me…
I quite literally am writing myself into who I am…
who I am becoming…who I will be…
My personal revolution…
A metamorphosis via a plethora of beloved words…
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If you wonder why I write..the above is the best answer I’m able to give you…
Perhaps that also explains why I write so often of the inability to
express words exactly how or when I would wish…
To put words to the vague…the intangible…the elusive…
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Some people call it writer’s block…
I call it amputation…
Without my beloved words…
I lose myself…my voice…my very essence…
I am only as unique as the words I choose…
The emotions…the feelings conjured by their purposeful placement.
It is my insistent compulsion to continually do so in ever more very varied ways…
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You need look no further…
For this is who I am…wholly and completely me…
To be found…
In each word I write…
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I am so excited to share that I will now be a contributing author over at The Poet’s Corner! You each have been so amazing and supportive as I have grown through my words…my connections with you all. Even if you’ve only visited once…clicked that magical “like” button…you, too, have added to my world..making it rich, vibrant, and beyond rewarding!
So…check out the above link and you will find a wealth of talented writers whom I am privileged to be amongst. I’ll look forward to catching up with all of you while I explore this new world of posting on two sites…as per the title I truly do feel this is double the honor and twice the fun!!
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Procession of emotions…
Steady succession of thoughts, so rapid they are unfathomable…
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My mind begs surrender to illusion of peace…
Longing for tranquility of thought creating serenity in my soul…
Momentary glimpses of how the scattered pieces will join together…
One by one a blurry picture of future is forged…
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The quest for answers takes me down the path of distraction…
Unexpected knowledge…
New pieces always adding to the potpourri of thought…
Mirage of the new world…
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Conflicted confusion invades serenity…
Discovered distraction surrounds me…where does it dwell?
More illusion or just a dream within a dream?
Did I unknowingly discover these new pieces?
Adding to the journey of solution…
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I close my eyes and ponder…
Trying to find answers…
They are not forthcoming…
Purposely hidden from me…
Faux reality…
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Surreal scenarios leave me aching for illumination…
Conflicted distraction my new companion…
The very lens through which I see myself…
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Tonight…
I am undone…
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~ This is my first attempt at the Ligo Haibun Challenge for more information and to see the other offerings click here ~
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This is my illusory image…the projection of myself. A paradox within the very masquerade I portray. I am not that which you think you see when you look at me. Quite the contrary…I am that which I choose to see. Reflection’s surreality is the lie. If you look with intent…truly discerning in your journey to discovery of what is or is not real. Then your rewards will be enlightenment, illumination, understanding. Even more so…you will see what I see…beyond the façade…the charade built over the years of life’s trials and tribulations…The interpretation of faux projection bearing no semblance of truth. You will see so far beyond the layers of lie…so as to truly see yourself when you look into me…your mirror.
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This is my first attempt at participating in the Friday Fictioneers challenge; indeed an intriguing challenge. Thank you Rochelle! And thank you Jennifer Pendergast for this wonderfully inspiring photograph. For more information on how to be a part of the Friday Fictioneers , click on the link above! And since this is my first attempt, please be gentle 😉
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(Photo Credit to Jennifer Pendergast)
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She had studied this scene over and over in her mind. She knew every step, knew how long she would have when the moment came. She had to be perfect; there would be no second chance. She steadied her breath. Her accoutrements were at the ready.
Now all there was left to do was wait. Yes, wait for that perfect moment. She heard footsteps begin the descent down the majestic staircase. Counting each footfall….knowing he was coming closer. She positioned her .338 Lapua Magnum…looking through the scope she was ready; three more steps and the mark was hers—
“Mom!” startled she stepped away from her laptop to investigate…
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He whispers through my dreams….
He paints pictures of future happiness and joy…
He molds each new vision carefully to show me just enough to elicit hope…
Never enough for illumination….
He whispers…”The time has come sweet child…you must gather your past pieces and pack them up…store them in your heart and your soul….
for now it is time for the beginning of the next chapter of your life.”
He takes my hand in his…warm and secure…
walking confidently to the future…
I feel comforted by his presence…his words….his guidance…I am not afraid.
We stop walking…..
I turn to him and look into his eyes questioningly…”Are we here?”
He answers softly…”Yes .”
He kisses my hand, releases it and begins to walk away.
“Wait…”
The fear of the unknown bearing down on me suddenly….
”What am I supposed to do now?”
He smiles a knowing smile which inconceivably puts me at ease once more.
“Now my sweet child…
You’ve left the past in the past….this is your future…go…live it….
shine brightly for you are loved.”
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