The place you cannot go….
It is buried deep within….
Safely hidden from all external forces….
It is where my heart resides locked up tight….
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I think of it often….
When hurtful words, actions, and circumstance permeate me….
Irregardless of their intent….they hurt….more than I can endure….
Inducing remembrance of why I wear my façade….
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As my soul sinks deeper within its faux protection…
There can be no hurt, no pain, no disenchantment….
Impenetrable, as only I hold the key….
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If I let you in, where you would wish to be….
The internal torment becomes unbearable with any action contrary to that which you wish to project….
Speak to me of love….whisper words of comfort…seek my trust….
All for not….for I will not let you in…
To potentially risk that which I have struggled…fought…
conquered with sheer determination….
The inception for this place of protection….
΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
All I am….
The sanctuary of my essence….
Subsumed in the place you cannot go….
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΅〜 ೋღ ❁ ღೋ 〜΅
΅〜 ೋ Christina〜 ೋ 〜΅
∼ Reconstructing Christina ∼ 