Illumination

Diaphanous Dreamscape….

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I look back trying to find illumination…
Seeking my inspiration…
Pivotal points of perception…
I search for my words…
They’ve left me in the desert of my reality…

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Transport me to my dreamscape…
Let me reside there…
Where words float around me like butterflies of serenity…
Whispering promises of peace…
A balm to soothe my soul…
My self expression…needing release…aching for it…

΅∼ ❀∼΅ 

I search the depths of my heart…
I see the tears…
The sadness…
The scars I choose to wear inside…
Remembrance of days gone…memories packed away…

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I see with hindsight a succession of happenings…
I see the struggle…
The very battle for my sanity ~ end with the discovery of my voice…
My words…
Each little nuance distinctively mine…

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I see pieces of me creating my sanctuary…
My oasis built from the words woven in my mind…
All ways there waiting for me….
A bouquet of thought…

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 This is my diaphanous dreamscape…
A reflection of me…
My creation…
Born from the ashes of my former life…
Now the foundation on which I rebuild….
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     ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

Hidden…

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Can you read the space between my words?

Though unsaid…perhaps subtly felt?

The very tool of my destruction…
Simultaneously my resurrection…

Delicately haunting…

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The more rare…
The more innovative…
Probable possibilities of persuasion…
Obscuring me…
Shielding…
Protecting…

Can I tempt you?
Fascinate you?
Entice you?

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Would you look beyond this masquerade I’ve so cleverly crafted?

Would you truly seek me with an exigent desire to unequivocally know me?

Would you rather believe the interpretation of my rendition…

Or keep me here where my words only serve…

Emulation’s illumination…

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Should you wish it…

I am here…
Hidden…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

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 Gorgeous photo by MariaAmanda ~ deviantart

Iridescence…

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She watches the cerulean twilight shimmer iridescence…

Thoughts swirl like butterflies in a dance of dreams…
Glitter inspiration…
Igniting illumination…
Kaleidoscope…

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Lost in amongst these very thoughts….

She writes her soul…
Bared for all…
Illuminated…
Transparent…
Vulnerable visions lie cloaked in ephemeral euphoria…

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Yes…
Here are her words…her voice…
Her essence…
Growing in Night’s elucidation…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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Image by princehenebeng

Waiting For The Rain…

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On the precipice of reality’s revelation….
Staring out at the majesty of the sea…
Thoughts wander aimlessly..

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My life’s imprint…
Introspective…
On the cusp of inspiration…
Illusory images of illumination…

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Enigmatic longing…
Destiny ever so slowly revealed…
I wish as the waves roll on oblivious of me…
I wish for epiphany…
Enlightenment…
Knowledge of Fate’s intent…

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Contemplation of the ocean… timeless…mysterious…immortal…
Lost in the rhythm if its reaching to and fro…
Enchanted by its gifts which permeate all my senses…
Glimpses of future tempting me to push further…

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I wait for any answer to my quest…
I wait for direction…
I wait for peace…
I wait for the rain to fall…

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    Paradigm…
 

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

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Gorgeous photo by b_r_a_c_i_a_t_a-d5f3woh

Phantoms of Nostalgia…

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Seasonal daydreams…
Inducement of contemplation…
Crystal clarity colors perfection…
Kaleidoscope…

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September dissipates summertime sadness…
Lost in Autumn’s haze…
Interminable wait…
October’s promise…
Precursor to winter’s wrap…
Undertones of unknown fill the space between…

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Hope meets Dream…
Their collision sparks ignition…
November’s epiphany waits impatiently…
Mists of enchantment permeate dreams… filling them with potentialities…

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Theoretical assumptions…
Phantoms of Nostalgia…
The quintessential question remains anonymous…
Silently demanding detours…

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December hints evocatively at New Year’s renewal…
Presumptive lugubrious thoughts…
Induce Thought’s labyrinth…
Ignoring ignorance…

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Dreams sustain impetuous assumption…
Answers lie cloaked in enigmatic disguise…
Leaving never-ending questions where the Shadows of Temerity roam…

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This is the season yearning…
For illumination…

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Gorgeous photo by LadyUndone Deviantart ~

Illumination’s Absence…

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Tumultuous emotions…
Dilution of enchantment…
Enticing facade permeates…
Truth’s Obscurity…
All ways on the edge of reality’s intention…

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Discombobulated senses…
Confusion…
Choice…
Hidden all ways is that fragility of spirit…
Longing for everything…
Longing for nothing…
Be strong…be wise…be the carefully crafted charade…
Safety in the shadows…

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Delicious ambiguity…
On the edge…
Decision’s deviation…

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Illumination’s Absence…

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

Gorgeous photo by ~  badcciintra deviantart

Ligo Haibun Challenge ~ Illusion ~

~ This is my first attempt at the Ligo Haibun Challenge for more information and to see the other offerings click here  ~

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This is my illusory image…the projection of myself. A paradox within the very masquerade I portray. I am not that which you think you see when you look at me. Quite the contrary…I am that which I choose to see. Reflection’s surreality is the lie. If you look with intent…truly discerning in your journey to discovery of what is or is not real. Then your rewards will be enlightenment, illumination, understanding. Even more so…you will see what I see…beyond the façade…the charade built over the years of life’s trials and tribulations…The interpretation of faux projection bearing no semblance of truth. You will see so far beyond the layers of lie…so as to truly see yourself when you look into me…your mirror.

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mirror illusion

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masquerade’s lie hidden
 truth impatiently waiting
mirror’s illumination

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      ∼ ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      ∼

Waiting For The Rain…

΅〜  ೋღ  ♥  ღೋ      〜΅    

girl in rain

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On the precipice of reality’s revelation….
Staring out at the majesty of the sea…
Thoughts wander aimlessly..

΅〜 ❀ 〜΅ 

My life’s imprint…
Introspective…
On the cusp of inspiration…
Illusory images of illumination…

΅〜 ❀ 〜΅ 

Enigmatic longing…
Destiny ever so slowly revealed…
I wish as the waves roll on oblivious of me…
I wish for epiphany…
Enlightenment…
Knowledge of Fate’s intent…

΅〜 ❀ 〜΅ 

Contemplation of the ocean… timeless…mysterious…immortal…
Lost in the rhythm if its reaching to and fro…
Enchanted by its gifts which permeate all my senses…
Glimpses of future tempting me to push further…

΅〜 ❀ 〜΅ 

I wait for any answer to my quest…
I wait for direction…
I wait for peace…
I wait for the rain to fall…

΅〜 ❀ 〜΅ 

    Paradigm…
 
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  ΅〜 ೋ ღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅ 

Diaphanous Dreamscape….

΅∼ ೋღ ♥ ღೋ      ∼΅

girl white rose

΅∼  ೋღ ♥ ღೋ      ∼΅

I look back trying to find illumination…
Seeking my inspiration…
Pivotal points of perception…
I search for my words…
They’ve left me in the desert of my reality…

΅∼ ❀∼΅ 

Transport me to my dreamscape…
Let me reside there…
Where words float around me like butterflies of serenity…
Whispering promises of peace…
A balm to soothe my soul…
My self expression…needing release…aching for it…

΅∼ ❀∼΅ 

I search the depths of my heart…
I see the tears…
The sadness…
The scars I choose to wear inside…
Remembrance of days gone…memories packed away…

΅∼ ❀ ∼΅ 

I see with hindsight a succession of happenings…
I see the struggle…
The very battle for my sanity ~ end with the discovery of my voice…
My words…
Each little nuance distinctively mine…

΅∼ ❀ ∼΅ 

I see pieces of me creating my sanctuary…
My oasis built from the words woven in my mind…
All ways there waiting for me….
A bouquet of thought…

΅∼ ❀ ∼΅ 

 This is my diaphanous dreamscape…
A reflection of me…
My creation…
Born from the ashes of my former life…
Now the foundation on which I rebuild….
~

΅  ೋღ ♥ ღೋ      ΅

   ΅∼  ೋღ Christina~ ღೋ      ∼΅ 

Desires Dichotomy….

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There was always desire…
A rare connection…
I could feel it when our eyes would meet
Then we had would look away… Unable to hold the intensity of it…
Did you feel it too?
Confusion in desire’s illumination…
You will never know me the way I’ve dreamed of…
I will never be yours…
You will never be mine…
Whether you dreamed of me will remain a mystery…
Now it is too late…
I hope you understand…
I cannot wait any longer…
I waited…but you were never mine…
You know we’re headed separate ways..
We’ll always have one thing…
Desire’s dichotomy…

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