Love

I’ll Be Gone…

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I’m afraid to love…

To want…to wish…

Dreams…

Hopes…

All of it…

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I feel you calling me to you…

I feel your desire…

I feel your love…

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You’re my strength…  

My knight…

My dream…

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Take my hand…

Pull me close…

Hold me tight…

Don’t let go…

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I’ll love you so well nothing will compare…

I’ll be everything you wish…everything you desire…

I’ll spoil you so well…none but me will

fulfill you so absolutely…

so completely…

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You’ll wonder what I want…

What I need…

How you can fulfill me…

You’ll ask me…

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I’ll change the subject…

I’ll take a step back…

You’ll ask me to open up…

To talk to you…

I’ll be further away…

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Take my hand…

Pull me close…

Hold me tight…

Don’t let go…

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Kiss me our last…

For when you wake…

I’ll be gone…

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Too afraid to risk it all…again

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

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The above piece was purely a fictional foray…

or as I like to call it…”Fun With Fiction“

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My Very Essence…

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  I write because I love words…

More than that…

I am utterly infatuated, fascinated, increasingly enamored with them…

their ability to express anything and everything one would desire…

 So very many decadently delightful and exquisitely evocative ways…

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I write to release pent up thoughts…emotions, hopes, fears, dreams…

Endless expressions of me…

Who I am…why I am…where I wish to go in this journey of life…

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Not only is writing my catharsis, it is unceasingly shaping me…

I quite literally am writing myself into who I am…

who I am becoming…who I will be…

My personal revolution…

A metamorphosis via a plethora of beloved words…

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If you wonder why I write..the above is the best answer I’m able to give you…

Perhaps that also explains why I write so often of the inability to

express words exactly how or when I would wish…

To put words to the vague…the intangible…the elusive…

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Some people call it writer’s block…

I call it amputation…

Without my beloved words…

I lose myself…my voice…my very essence…

I am only as unique as the words I choose…

The emotions…the feelings conjured by their purposeful placement.

It is my insistent compulsion to continually do so in ever more very varied ways…

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You need look no further…

For this is who I am…wholly and completely me…

To be found…

In each word I write…

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

   

Blissful Oblivion…

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Love me no more…
Love me no less…
I cannot compete with the illusion I’ve created… projected…
I am not all you see…
My true self lies hidden in oblivion…
Buried inside…safe…protected…
I’ve worn this mask long enough to almost fool myself…

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Don’t you see me?
Can you see beyond my charade?
Do you even want to…
I suppose that is the driving question…

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I am a jaded dreamer…
Hopeless romantic…
Vulnerable…
Hesitant…
Cautious…
Shattered…
Reconstructing…
A plethora of words…none will do…

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Blissful oblivion…is where I remain….
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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

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Captivated…

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You look into me…
Me into you…
We meet there in the middle…
Captivated…

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Need drives its own insistent desire to inception…
Embraced in this perfect moment…
Held by the enigmatic nature of will…
Unable to look away…
Locked in place….
Locked in time…

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Don’t look away…
Keep me here as I memorize your soul with mine…
Let us stay suspended in wonder…
Before Reality’s ocean rips us apart…

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We are helpless in its wake…
Fate’s cruelty using us as pawns for pleasure…
Neither here nor there…

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Our moment permanently fixed in the stars for all time…
Love…without completion…without end…

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Forever captivated…
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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

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Hope’s Dream…

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Hope's Dream

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I dream in soft golden hues of hope..
I dream the intangible becomes visceral…
I dream in shades of eternal spring…

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Where everything is reborn…new and possible…
Where my heart doesn’t ache in the throes of love’s vicissitudes…
Where life is likened to a blossoming rose…
slowly opening to welcome sunshine…
Where the gentle rains wash away my tears…

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I dream of kindness not bitterness…
Of hope…not despair…
Of honesty…not duplicity…
Of transparency…not hidden agendas…

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I dream for inspiration…
I dream for hope renewed…
I dream because I must…

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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

In A Moment…

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       In A Moment…

     You can laugh…

      You can cry….

          You can behold the most beautiful things…

     You can have your breath taken away…

       You can experience excruciating agony…

      You can cry tears of joy…

            You can be given devastating news..

      You can smile…

      You can create unforgettable memories…

      You can fall in love…

      You can brighten someones day…

      You can give your heart away…

      You can walk away from love…

      You can break a heart…

      You can mend a heart…

       All this and more you can do in a moment…

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      Cherish every moment…

       For it’s not how much time you have…

      It’s the moments you fill it with…

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Wipe Away My Tears…

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Wipe Away My Tears...

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Melancholy descends…
Enveloping me…
Past and present collide…
Contemplation in the aftermath…

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Past…present…future…
Coalesce into conflicted confusion…

 I see the light faintly through the black of night…beckoning me to its peace…
I sit…ponder…feel…

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Tumultuous emotions inducing me to feel everything at once…
Happy, despair, joy, hope, fear…
The tears fall unwillingly…
They ignore my plea to stop…
Mirrored images recreate remembrance of every detail I’ve fought so hard to forget…

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Life is fleeting…
In a heartbeat everything changes…

My strength is a façade…a mask worn long enough to convince me of it’s transparent deception…

Please…wipe away my tears…
Be strong for me…

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Let me smile through to my soul…
Let that happiness waiting in the peripheral fill me once again…
Let the sunshine in…

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

Enigma…

Each day we face similar choices depending on daily scenario’s. Recently…I have been reminded of how I was feeling a year ago and so with that I present….  ~ Enigma…

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 There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

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I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

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The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

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I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

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Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

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Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

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  ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅ 

Imprint…

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I never thought it could be like this…

I never thought you could imprint so strongly and firmly fixed to me…in me… that I find it hard to think of anything…now that you’re gone…

I’ll always remember how you came to me…how you wove into each facet of my life…with so much happiness and joy…I smile just thinking of yours…

Your laugh…your embrace…the taste of your kiss…memories so vivid and strong they follow me to sleep… where dreams and impossibilities rule…where time and distance do not exist except as a construct to recreate each perfect moment we shared…

Apropos… for you are my dream…a dream I could touch…could revel in for but a brief time before I had to let you go…

With promises…love and a kiss…you were gone…leaving a hole inside me where you dwelt completely…too briefly…

I shall fill myself with each memory…reliving them to cement them inside my heart…my very soul…

Until…

You return to me and once again dance me to the stars…

Once again ignite every wondrous and magical feeling…

Once again tell me I am yours…as you are mine…

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           ೋ  Christina ~ ೋ

Soul Mates….

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It begins with One…

Connections made life expands…

Connections not made life takes on a whole new meaning…

Not being all one can be…

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Two become one through a Soul’s bond…

Epiphany lights the path to revelation…

Everything becomes possible…

Nothing can stop its unfathomable force…

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Love reveals all things…

Encouraging all impossibilities to depart…

Nurturing Dream’s inception…

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Love illuminates…

Nourishing inspiration that anything is indeed possible…

Belief…Encouragement…Faith that one can achieve anything…

Alone no longer creating inspiration’s fulfillment…

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Completion… Balance…Serenity…Peace…

In recognition of these…

Love’s companions…

One now has the impetus to conquer all dreams…

To bring those dreams to fruition…

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All because…

One had belief in the other…

Love surrounding each…

Infinite possibilities…

Soul Mates…

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