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I feel your gaze…a soft caress…
I see you between the pale light of the rising moon and deep shadows…
There and not there..
Waiting…
Come find me…
Dance this subtly surreal dance with me…
Decadence in the dark…
Let us stay in the hidden peripheral..
I, in the trance of twilight’s tempestuous temptation…
You, on the edge of everything and nothing…
There… not there…
Come find me…
Take my hand…
Rescue me…
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He whispers through my dreams….
He paints pictures of future happiness and joy…
He molds each new vision carefully to show me just enough to elicit hope…
Never enough for illumination….
He whispers…”The time has come sweet child…you must gather your past pieces and pack them up…store them in your heart and your soul….
for now it is time for the beginning of the next chapter of your life.”
He takes my hand in his…warm and secure…
walking confidently to the future…
I feel comforted by his presence…his words….his guidance…I am not afraid.
We stop walking…..
I turn to him and look into his eyes questioningly…”Are we here?”
He answers softly…”Yes .”
He kisses my hand, releases it and begins to walk away.
“Wait…”
The fear of the unknown bearing down on me suddenly….
”What am I supposed to do now?”
He smiles a knowing smile which inconceivably puts me at ease once more.
“Now my sweet child…
You’ve left the past in the past….this is your future…go…live it….
shine brightly for you are loved.”
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(In a dream)
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She closes her eyes to watch the parade of allemande memories dance
through her mind…as if choreographed…
Only these memories are of him…and her…desire mixed with love…
creating a symphony out of each detail of their time together…
His eyes imprinted in her mind…
so full of adoration and his love for her…
His touch forever fixed as an indelible mark upon her senses…
heightening them with only a thought…
His voice the song in her heart…
soothing while caressing her with each word… such sweet elegance…
This dance of love keeping synchronous rhythm…
Every step…every breath…every heartbeat shared….
Building the chorus of their song…
keeping time…once elusive…now at their leisure…
Each memory adds to the one before…
As it is being composed with each new moment…
adding to its crescendo…
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As if from nowhere…
Suddenly you were there…
You knew me, better than I knew myself…
I recognized you even though you were unknown…
Intoxicating inception…
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Soft sensuous whispers of promising adventures to come…
Laughter…joy…peace…trust…
Excited anticipation to know and be known again…
Seduction by words…
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Reality comes crashing in…
Doubt…fear…uncertainty…
This can not be real…
You are my imagination’s foolish figment…
I realize the truth…
You can not be here….
This can not be real…
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The mind rationalizes the irrational, to protect itself…
Dichotomy in a dream…
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Dare I risk tempestuous temptation?
What if…
A whole plethora of what if’s…
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If I want to live…
If I want to truly experience life…
Then I must accept the terrifying risk…
That when I awake from this desirous dream…
You…disappear…
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There I lay…
Sleepless night…
Lost in my distracted thoughts…
Unable to rest…to be still…
The mind rushes…
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Sleep comes…softly…
Fleeting…threatening to vanish…
Toss and Turn….
Twisted sheets match my thoughts…
My dreams….don’t dream…
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Please…sleep come…
Take me where I can dream…
Where I want to dream…
Don’t disappear…
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Dreams come hard and fast….
Too fast…too elusive…
The mind rushes…
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Please slow down…
I want to know you…savor your lucid images…
Revel in the falling…
Dreams sweet embrace…
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I cannot dream…
Will not dream…
For fear of awakening…yet again…
Dreaded disappearance…
The mind rushes…
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Sleepless night…
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One step…
One word…
One inspiration…
One blog…
One quote…
One poem….
One post….
One compliment…
One encouragement…
One more step…
One more realization…
One more action….
Bringing me closer…
One more piece…
One hope…
An entire dream being built …
By adding one…
“It is such a secret place, the land of tears.”
~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery, The Little Prince ~
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Suppressed temptation…
Longing…anticipatiously…
Dream of loves sweet embrace…
Yet again…slowly rushing…
Peace, joy, happiness…
Sublime impatience…
Remember…No…don’t remember…
Create new pieces…a new journey to adventure…
Excitement…
All that I was is added to all I will become…
The path I fear to tread…
Fear, pain, agony…new pieces…
Now I know…
Now I can add those to the past puzzle…
Tears falling…
Creating the new river…
Ready to be swept away…
Letting go…
My sadness makes you immortal…
Reflections in my eyes of who I was…
Morphing into….
Who I will become…
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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee
“Don’t let anyone steal your dream. It’s your dream, not theirs.” ~
∼ Reconstructing Christina ∼ 