Feeling Good….

I know it’s been awhile since I’ve posted and

I’ve had some inquiries as to such….

Well….

Nina Simone can say it better than I….

So if you’re wondering how I’m doing….

I will answer….

I’m feeling good….

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Birds flying high you know how I feel
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Breeze driftin’ on by you know how I feel

(refrain:)x2
It’s a new dawn
It’s a new day
It’s a new life
For me
And I’m feeling good

Fish in the sea you know how I feel
River running free you know how I feel
Blossom on the tree you know how I feel

(refrain)

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don’t you know
Butterflies all havin’ fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That’s what I mean

And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

Stars when you shine you know how I feel
Scent of the pine you know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel

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Sometimes…you hear music that moves you…
Sometimes…you read something that touches you…
Sometimes…you see something that effects you as nothing has before…
Sometimes…all three come together and you feel it in your soul…making you cry with a kaleidoscope of emotion…
This video by Neil…was all three for me…
You Sweet Sir…are brilliant…it is with total admiration that I reblog this…
Thank you so so much for sharing this!!

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Words:  NGT, “The Caffeine Chronicles” My Pretzel Logic
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In A Moment….

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In A Moment…

 You can laugh…

You can cry….

You can behold the most beautiful things…

You can have your breath taken away…

You can experience excruciating agony…

You can cry tears of joy…

You can be given devastating news..

You can smile…

You can create unforgettable memories…

You can fall in love…

You can brighten someones day…

You can give your heart away…

You can walk away from love…

You can break a heart…

You can mend a heart…

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All this and more you can do in a moment…

Cherish every moment…

 For it’s not how much time you have…

It’s the moments you fill it with…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

And now for something a little different…..

As some of you may or may not know….I am a geek. Purebred and proud of it. I love video games, everything sci-fi, and some other pretty random stuff for a “girl”. This has sparked many fun and interesting conversations with a few fellow bloggers. There is one I shall focus on today though as he is the source of so much laughter and fun I have to share.

I know my blog is usually pretty serious (aside from some awards posts) so I would now like to “come out of the geek closet” and share the quirkier side of me. If you know me in real life or have talked to me at all really in the blogoverse then you know that I am often very silly and love love love to laugh.

Hence my blog attraction to Chris9911. He’s hysterical. He cracks me up. Before you go and get all weird on me, knowing my story and all, he is happily married…for the record! 😀

That being said there was a recent…um….comment conversation we had about the movie Caddyshack which spawned a post of his here: http://chris9911.wordpress.com/2012/09/23/wanted-caddyshack-dvd-but-ended-up-with-a-lab-microscope-instead/ .  It’s a hysterical post about men….and I was in stitches reading it!! Especially since I feel partially guilty for helping him with his rash decision to buy the microscope.

So, Chris….the video below is for you and any avid gamer who has waited ever so anticipatiously for a game to come out….and then it does and you have it in your hand as you suspensefully open it ready for all the adventure it will bring….and I have to admit I did think of you, Chris, finally getting Caddyshack…LOL :p

Thank you to my eldest daughter, Jordan, and her boyfriend Max for this laugh today….I LOVE it!!

Enigma…

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There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

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I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

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The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

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I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

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Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

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Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

Intoxicating Inception…

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As if from nowhere…

Suddenly you were there…

You knew me, better than I knew myself…

I recognized you even though you were unknown…

Intoxicating inception…

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Soft sensuous whispers of promising adventures to come…

Laughter…joy…peace…trust…

Excited anticipation to know and be known again…

Seduction by words…

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Reality comes crashing in…

Doubt…fear…uncertainty…

This can not be real…

You are my imagination’s foolish figment…

I realize the truth…

You can not be here….

This can not be real…

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The mind rationalizes the irrational, to protect itself…

Dichotomy in a dream…

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Dare I risk tempestuous temptation?

What if…

A whole plethora of what if’s…

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If I want to live…

If I want to truly experience life…

Then I must accept the terrifying risk…

That when I awake from this desirous dream…

You…disappear…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

Undone…

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Procession of emotions…

Steady succession of thoughts, so rapid they are unfathomable…

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My mind begs surrender to illusion of peace.

Longing for tranquillity of thought creating serenity in my soul.

Momentary glimpses of how the scattered pieces will join together.

One by one a blurry picture of future is forged.

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The quest for answers takes me down the path of distraction…

Unexpected knowledge…

New pieces always adding to the potpourri of thought…

Mirage of the new world.

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Conflicted confusion invades serenity…

Discovered distraction surrounds me…where does it dwell?

More illusion or just a dream within a dream?

Did I unknowingly discover these new pieces?

Adding to the journey of solution…

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I close my eyes and ponder…

Trying to find answers…

They are not forthcoming…

Purposely hidden from me…

Faux reality…

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Surreal scenarios leave me aching for illumination…

Conflicted distraction my new companion.

The very lens through which I see myself.

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Tonight…

I am undone…

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copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

One Night…

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Lying under the blanket of night…
Stars sparkle their way through the black backdrop…
Creating illusions of images to please each soul…

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Waiting for a star to fall…
Waiting to wish my secret wish…
I stare intently…hoping…
They are oblivious of me and my desirous intention…

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Still I watch…
Still I wait…

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Longing for that one fleeting moment…
They continue their twinkling show…

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Still I wait…
Still I watch…

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Night…
Your playground…
My wishing place…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee

Emergence…

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She had a perfect life…

Love…passion…family…

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One day…

The world crushed her…

Sent so much agony…barraged…

She didn’t know how to go on…

Her children…

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She would wrap herself in a cocoon and brave this painful new world…

To spite incoming insidious cruelty…

She withstood the severest of storms…

Onslaught after onslaught…

Cocoon standing strong…

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One beautiful day she knew she was free from oppression….

She knew she had won…

This battle of her life…

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Now she begins the journey into this new unknown world…

First…she must break out of her cocoon…

Slow and steady…

Gently like the butterfly…

Strong… yet so very fragile…

It is not a quick process…

She is the only one who can break herself free…

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And like the butterfly…

If she doesn’t do it on her own…

She will not survive the new world…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee

Elusive…

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There I lay…

Sleepless night…

Lost in my distracted thoughts…

Unable to rest…to be still…

The mind rushes…

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Sleep comes…softly…

Fleeting…threatening to vanish…

Toss and Turn….

Twisted sheets match my thoughts…

My dreams….don’t dream…

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Please…sleep come…

Take me where I can dream…

Where I want to dream…

Don’t disappear…

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Dreams come hard and fast….

Too fast…too elusive…

The mind rushes…

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Please slow down…

I want to know you…savor your lucid images…

Revel in the falling…

Dreams sweet embrace…

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I cannot dream…

Will not dream…

For fear of awakening…yet again…

Dreaded disappearance…

The mind rushes…

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Sleepless night…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee