Enigma…

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There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

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I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

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The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

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I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

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Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

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Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

37 thoughts on “Enigma…

  1. Letting go of the past doesn’t mean it is truly gone, Christina. It means you now have it tucked it safely away where you can access it at any time you wish.

    This poem is Fantastic 🙂 You have surpassed yourself again

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    • Thank you so much, you always brighten my day with encouragement and ever so kind praise!! 🙂 I really appreciate your reminder, yes I can access those precious times any time. Thank you again sweet sweet friend!! 🙂 Hugs ~

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  2. This is the best thing you have every written. While I also know that ever single word is a truth and holds deep meaning for you, you have expressed those feelings in a beautiful and poetically moving piece of art. Very well done my love, Mom

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    • Thank you so much, there really aren’t enough words to adequately express my gratitutude to you for your generous praise on this. It was truly from my heart for the whole world to see. To think that it could be my best yet, well…that’s just the icing on the cake!! So so very appreciative of you Mom!! Huge Hugs ~

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  3. AnElephantCant say anything more meaningful than Penny just did.
    But this is a truly beautiful and heart-rending piece that brought a lump to a cynical old throat.
    Hugs, sweet lady

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  4. How beautiful! The whole subject of “passing time” often makes me melancholy … it goes SO fast. Kids grow up SO fast. Life goes by SO fast. I’d love to have a button to slow things down. Great poem… thoughtful and beautiful. 🙂

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    • Thank you so much!! Sincerely so so appreciative of your praise on this!! 😀 Indeed time does go too fast….we all need to remember to cherish every single moment!! 🙂

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    • Oh Meryl!! I’m always so happy if I can write something that can be meaningul for someone else 😀 Thank you so much for your sweet thoughts, so very appreciated!! 🙂

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  5. I agree with your mother, I believe this is your best work yet. You have such a tremendous ability to pull such raw emotions from the depths and present them so beautifully. Your pain is clearly felt but there is a hopefulness that springs forth as well. Cherish those memories as you forge your path forward and have a blessed day Christina. 🙂

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    • LuAnn, thank you so very very much!! I honestly can’t express how appreicative I am of the most generous praise and encouragement that you always bring me when you visit!! I will cherish, always…in all ways…thank you again sweet friend!! 🙂 I hope you had a wonderful wonderful day!!! Hugs and Blessings ~

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    • Oh no no, don’t feel bad!! Please? 🙂 I might have to pull out “my” Zen voice haha! I wrote this a few days ago and well…tomorrow will be a difficult day. Don’t really want to get into why…just mention it because I need your lighting quick wit and humor and I’ll be just fine! Promise 🙂

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      • umm, I don’t think zen voice will work with your current avatar, because its simply too STYLISH for it 🙂
        Sorry I missed your September 24, 2012. I, too, was pretty swamped with everything. I’m back now to catch up on all the fun topics 🙂 I’m assuming you survived your bad day?

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        • LOL!!! okay, how about a jedi master voice? Maybe I could pull that one off :p Yes, thank you, I survived….I always do 😉 Oh I do have something for you….just wait :p

          Were you so swamped with “your country’s 500th anniversary to plan”….and other things….”just remember if you haven’t got your health you haven’t got anything”. :p Your turn to guess….haha :p

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          • Okay, Jedi master can work…lol. Glad you survived and still kickin’, we like it like that 🙂
            hehe, something for me? I’m guessing your poll question blog is almost ready? 🙂 something about movie or gravatar?
            And I have no idea where those quotes are coming from. You have to give me a hint on that one. I know its not from any of the movies we talked about…

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            • hahaha The post is up and ready for you Zen Master Chris… 😀 Not a poll, but something funny…

              Ok…here’s another hint “My name is Indigo Mantoya….” OR “Never go against a Sicilian when death is on the line……” 😉

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              • sweet! You unleashed the funny side of you tonight? I’m omw to check it out.
                lol @ indigo mantoya…sounds pretty funny but it still doesn’t ring a bell. gonna have to bing this one 😦

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                • Haha unleashed the funny side….I’m trying!!! See you’re a good influence on me!! :p Really? Reeeallly? You haven’t seen that movie? oh man….it was a cult classic!!! Then I have homework for you…..or a mission rather – should you choose to accept it :p – 2 movies….if you haven’t seen them, it is a moral imperative that you do….1) The Princess Bride – because it’s funny!! 2) Undercover Blues – and yes there will be a test. Just kidding about the test, but I think I know what kind of humor you like and know you will laugh…. So will you accept the mission? 😉

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                  • Actually, you’ve been unleashing your funnyside with every comment you have made so far…lol. Princess Bride…hmmm. I actually did watch that once, looong long time ago. Infact, its my wife’s favorite movie, she made me watch it with her. Only thing I remember is Mr. Andre the Giant…lol. I’ve never seen Undercover Blues, but I’ll be looking out for it on netflix and hulu, while I’m still under the free 30day period…lol. In other words, I ACCEPT your ‘Don’t click the sale page this time’ mission

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                    • Yay!! You will love them, especially Undercover Blues (was like a sleeper classic…sooo funny)ROFL I should have added the disclaimer part about no sales pages….but you got the hidden msg anyway….heyyy….maybe my jedi master voice IS working LOL 😉 Why is it men always remember that movie has Andre in it? lol It is a funny movie….lots of great quoteable lines! And apparently your wife has very very good taste 😀

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  6. Beautiful words, Christina – full of hope 🙂 For what it’s worth, I don’t think we can – or should – ever let go of the past. It is, after all, a significant part of who we are. You only have to look at my own blog, which was originally completely based upon the past, to see how fundamental it is to our being.

    I’d even go so far as to say that I think the key to the future lies in the past… we have to take the best of our memories and carry them with us. Those memories can be a source of comfort and inspiration, maybe even a template for dreams to come.

    We also have to look at what went wrong and see how we can learn from those lessons… how can we improve ourselves? This is a very difficult lesson for me, to be honest… I find it hard to distinguish when I am truly to blame for something from when others *think* that I am to blame…

    But you don’t have to give up the past… you should always keep those memories alive… love, honour and cherish them… resolve to make your life better as a result…

    …anyway… I’m rambling… this is what happens when I reply to posts after 2 hours of solid sleep in 2 days LOL

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    • Richard, thank you for sharing your thoughts…really do appreciate them. Yes we must always remember the lessons learned and cherish the memories. But the sad truth of losing somone you love is letting go….in order to move forward. You cannot live in the past….I guess that’s where the inspiration for this came from.

      Thanks for your sweet thoughts and encouragement 🙂

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  7. my good friend is taking the plunge 🙂 you are right in saying that the future will be your way of life. if we have learned enough from the past, then every step we take towards the future won’t be leaps of faith but rather a pursuit of our aspirations. very wise choice! wishing you all the best! 🙂

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    • Neil 🙂 Thank you so much…always appreciate your insight!! Yes….pursuit of aspirations….I do like that, very very much! Thank you sweet sir for your encouragement!! Hugs ~

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  8. “Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…”
    Your poem reflects many faces of life — you have beautifully revealed the masked ones too, which we so often ignore seeing, in the mirror of truth.
    Beautiful piece of writing !

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    • Thank you so very much for your generous praise! I have to apologize for my tardiness in replying…have been caught up in things offline. I do appreciate your insight…the mirror of truth, I like that very much indeed! 😀

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