Illumination’s Absence…

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Tumultuous emotions…
Dilution of enchantment…
Enticing facade permeates…
Truth’s Obscurity…
All ways on the edge of reality’s intention…

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Discombobulated senses…
Confusion…
Choice…
Hidden all ways is that fragility of spirit…
Longing for everything…
Longing for nothing…
Be strong…be wise…be the carefully crafted charade…
Safety in the shadows…

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Delicious ambiguity…
On the edge…
Decision’s deviation…

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Illumination’s Absence…

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My Very Essence…

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  I write because I love words…

More than that…

I am utterly infatuated, fascinated, increasingly enamored with them…

their ability to express anything and everything one would desire…

 So very many decadently delightful and exquisitely evocative ways…

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I write to release pent up thoughts…emotions, hopes, fears, dreams…

Endless expressions of me…

Who I am…why I am…where I wish to go in this journey of life…

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Not only is writing my catharsis, it is unceasingly shaping me…

I quite literally am writing myself into who I am…

who I am becoming…who I will be…

My personal revolution…

A metamorphosis via a plethora of beloved words…

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If you wonder why I write..the above is the best answer I’m able to give you…

Perhaps that also explains why I write so often of the inability to

express words exactly how or when I would wish…

To put words to the vague…the intangible…the elusive…

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Some people call it writer’s block…

I call it amputation…

Without my beloved words…

I lose myself…my voice…my very essence…

I am only as unique as the words I choose…

The emotions…the feelings conjured by their purposeful placement.

It is my insistent compulsion to continually do so in ever more very varied ways…

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You need look no further…

For this is who I am…wholly and completely me…

To be found…

In each word I write…

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Anatomy Of Envy…

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Duplicitous people… Ego reigns supreme…
Faceless anonymity…
Blending into the crowd…
 Envy ever-present in each shadow…

Pretense of Virtue…

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Infected thoughts permeate reason…

Drive inconsistent action….

Feed self-doubt…

Façade’s creation from distorted understanding…

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It is not self one now projects….

It is another…

Envy morphs into emotional despair…

Feeds on itself until nothing but Ego remain…

Ego cares not for others…

It is self-driven…self-fulfilling…

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One cure will abolish it…

Gratitude…

For all one has…

For all one is….

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No one can be you…

 No one can be me… 

For we are each…

Unique…   

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Fade To Black…

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Tell me…

Tell me I’ll break free from the machinations of melancholy…

Tell me the sun will shine in my heart…my soul once again…

That it will illuminate me from within radiating ever outward…

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Tell me my beloved words will return…

The wait is interminable…

Tumultuous thoughts scream in the quiescence their departure evoked…

Emotions evanesce unable to speak…to be heard…

Locked up…

Trapped inside…

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Memory’s echo or faint images of dream…

I can no longer differentiate…

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They long to leave me whilst simultaneously etching themselves

in my soul awaiting their departure…

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Yet my voice is trapped within…

Without words it is powerless…

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Deafening silence overwhelms…

In solitary desperation my soul softly whispers…

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Be still…

Breathe…

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For it is not disconcertion of spirit that will elicit their return…

Rather…it is in the still of night…

When you allow all of your worries…

To fade to black…

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