October Rose…

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She sat staring remembering the beginning…
When the darkness enveloped her…
the darkness that permeated her everything…

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Every moment…began to get brighter…
Slow and steady the light shone through…
Fought its way to her…

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She tried to hide from it

complacent in the comfort in the deep black of her memory…
The light…

Finding its way through…started to brighten her world…

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It was foreign to her…
She had forgotten what it felt like…

Warmth on her face…

surrounding her in its embrace…in its beauty…
One ray of light…then another…
Another and another…

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Soon she could see again…
She saw smiles…
She felt the warmth of friendship…
She was inundated by the light…
She welcomed it finding new comfort here in its golden hues…
She sat staring…remembering when it dawned on her…
She knew…
It was the October Rose…

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Copyright © Christina Brownlee 2012

Feeling Good….

I know it’s been awhile since I’ve posted and

I’ve had some inquiries as to such….

Well….

Nina Simone can say it better than I….

So if you’re wondering how I’m doing….

I will answer….

I’m feeling good….

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Birds flying high you know how I feel
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Breeze driftin’ on by you know how I feel

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It’s a new dawn
It’s a new day
It’s a new life
For me
And I’m feeling good

Fish in the sea you know how I feel
River running free you know how I feel
Blossom on the tree you know how I feel

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Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don’t you know
Butterflies all havin’ fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That’s what I mean

And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

Stars when you shine you know how I feel
Scent of the pine you know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel

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In A Moment….

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In A Moment…

 You can laugh…

You can cry….

You can behold the most beautiful things…

You can have your breath taken away…

You can experience excruciating agony…

You can cry tears of joy…

You can be given devastating news..

You can smile…

You can create unforgettable memories…

You can fall in love…

You can brighten someones day…

You can give your heart away…

You can walk away from love…

You can break a heart…

You can mend a heart…

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All this and more you can do in a moment…

Cherish every moment…

 For it’s not how much time you have…

It’s the moments you fill it with…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

Enigma…

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There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

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I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

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The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

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I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

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Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

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Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

One Night…

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Lying under the blanket of night…
Stars sparkle their way through the black backdrop…
Creating illusions of images to please each soul…

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Waiting for a star to fall…
Waiting to wish my secret wish…
I stare intently…hoping…
They are oblivious of me and my desirous intention…

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Still I watch…
Still I wait…

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Longing for that one fleeting moment…
They continue their twinkling show…

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Still I wait…
Still I watch…

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Night…
Your playground…
My wishing place…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee

Paradox…

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Words string together in my mind like the rushing river….

Lost in the current of thought…

Gone too fast to contemplate…

Hope…excitement…longing…anticipation…

Distraction….

Delusion…

Disquiet….

Paradox…

Hope and Fear cannot live together…

So many words…

So many questions…

So many …too many…

Confusion….

Your sweet voice in my ears like a warm summer breeze…

Soothing…tempting…beckoning…

Delicious distraction…

A dream hidden in reality…

Another paradox…

Dissipating disquiet…

Breathe….just…breathe…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee ~

Inspirational Regenerations…

Okay, so I’m a wee bit behind on these…but you all still love me right?!? 😀 First I just want to say what an honor it is for me, truly, to be thought of for these awards…just makes me smile!! — In the midst of some most unpleasant shenanigans (see how nice I said that?) going on here before “certain people’s exit out of our lives to a different state”  — This is just an amazing gift…all of them!!!  I would love to answer all the questions for each of these…but I am currently working on something that prevents me (due to time) from giving these the full recognition they deserve. I’ll pre-apologize now.

Please know how incredibly amazing and honored it is for me to be thought of for these awards!!! That being said…here goes — I would like to thank (in random order because I’m just not that organized) Tina Liu from http://astronomybythecosmos.com/ for The Inspiring Blog Award.

Continuing on my theme for breaking rules, I’m only going to nominate  a few people for each award.

The rules — should you choose to accept are — 1) Post Award on your site 2) Thank the person who nominated you. 3) Nominate as many people as you want. 4) If you would like to, ask some questions you’d really like to know the answer to of the people you nominate! Or don’t…it’s all up to you and whichever you choose is/will be fantastic!  5) If you already have the award I’ve nomianted you for and would rather have another…please feel free to take it!! 😀

For the Inspiring Blog Award I would like to nominate a few of the many who consistently inspire me ~

Robyn Lee ~ http://throughthehealinglens.com/

Chris ~          http://itsallaboutthedreams.wordpress.com/

Michelle ~     http://michellesomer.wordpress.com

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Next I had the pleasure of receiving a nomination for The Beautiful Blog Award from  http://sharechair.wordpress.com/ .

This is such an honor…all with a wonderful theme (Inspiration) and gorgeous bloggers who thought of me for these awards. 

Please go visit them if you get the chance, I guarantee you will be glad you did!! For the rules ~Please see above for same rules ~

I would like to nominate the following for the Beautiful Blogger Award because they are!! 😀

http://readinpleasure.wordpress.com/

http://subhanzein.wordpress.com

http://kokopellibeefreeblog.wordpress.com

http://www.recoverythrumylens.wordpress.com

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Next is an award from Wendy at  http://greenlightlady.wordpress.com/ – I have to admit I’ve not see this award before! I think it’s so very cool! It is called A Thought Provoking Blog Award. I’m just so appreciative to be thought of for this award!!

The rules for all of these state that I have to write 7-ish things about myself. Since there are so many (what a wonderous problem to have! 😀 ) I have decided not to this time as I will be answering questions below  and also I was “leapfrogged” So will be answering those questions as well. 🙂 I’m hopeful you will forgive me for breaking the rules this time! Instead I will use the rules above for this one too! 😉

I would like to nominate the following for A Thought Provoking Blog ~because they are the first to pop in my head for being thought provoking!

Neil ~        http://ngtolentino.wordpress.com/

Prashant ~http://justspokenthoughts.wordpress.com/

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I was given the Sunshine Award by Mondrak at http://kattermonran.com/  and was Leapfrogged/tagged by Mondrak (see below for the questions & answers). Thank you so much sweet friend for thinking of me for this. All of these awards are like huge hugs from all of you and truly brighten my life!!!

Again I would like use the same rules as above! 🙂 I would like to nominate the following for being a bright light in my life, hence the Sunshine Award.

Rosy ~    http://sharingmemyselfandi.wordpress.com

Dory ~    http://dorysworld.wordpress.com

Boomie ~http://boomiebol.wordpress.com

Richard ~http://thelastsongiheard.wordpress.com/

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Next was an unbelieveably brilliantly fantastic award ~a real Doctor Who Award ~ The reasons behind this award are as amazing as the show (you know, I’ve already told you I’m a HUGE Doctor Who fan 🙂 ). This is called the Regenerations Award and the nomination comes from my mom Penny ~http://thewhyaboutthis.com/2012/08/24/dont-blink/ ~That’s where she explains the nomination. And if you’re curious ( you know you are ) then click the following link for the reasons behind this award and why it’s so very special http://thelastsongiheard.wordpress.com/regenerations/ .

Here are the rules:

  1. Keep calm. Don’t blink. Firstly, you have to thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  2. You have to state that bow ties are cool. And Fez’s. Welllll… if you don’t like Fez’s, that’s okay. ~ Fez’s are cool but bow ties are even more cool 😀
  3. Nominate one other blog for this award. Say thank you to that person. Just one person. It’s not a chain letter :D
  4. Post your nominee’s name on the Regenerations Award page here.
  5. Answer the following questions:
  • Who are you? ~ Hmmm…who am I…the quintessential question for all to ponder. I guess I am a girl, okay woman, who got her world turned upside down, torn to pieces, shattered and am currently putting those pieces back together. I am a mom who loves her kids more than her own life and I like to think a good human being in that I inherently love people and would do most anything for my friends. I am also a person (who I recently discovered) who has quite the temper when provoked….don’t mess with my babies (children). I AM a momma bear and I WILL fight furiously!
  • Are you happy?I am more happy now then I have been for over two years. I am grateful for my life, for my children — their good health, my mom, my family, my local friends who never left my side, and of course I am most grateful for my new amazing and consistently inspiring friends here!!
  • If you could change just one thing about yourself, right now, to make your life better, what would it be? ~ I guess I’m already doing that…making the changes I want to make without anyone so wholly unconnected to myself’s opinion! I am cherishing life with a newfound respect for how fragile and precious it is and I am working to be healthier in every aspect for a more fufilled life.
  • Who, or what, inspires you? ~ Finally, an easy question! :p My mom. She raised two kids on her own and I like to think we both grew up to be loving, respectful, caring, empathetic, honest to a fault, and great parents because we had such an amazing example!!

Now in keeping with the awards rules, I would like to nominate Mondrak at http://kattermonran.com/ for the Regenerations Award because he inspires me, he’s awesome fun, and even better he is a fellow Doctor Who fan!!! So I am hoping he will love this award, and the idea behind it, as much as I do!!

One last note…to Mondrak – Since this post is much longer than anticipated I will be adding in the Leapfrog/Tag post soonest!

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~*~My most heartfelt appreciation and gratitude to everyone who thought of me for these awards…they are so very special to me! ~*~

If I could I would nominate every single one of you for each of these beautiful awards!! You all have encouraged me, inspired me, and shone so bright on dark days. Each of you is priceless to me. Is there a priceless award? If not, someone more tech-savy than me needs to make one! 😉

Kaleidoscope…

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What dreams may come….

I sit and ponder….

So many emotions flashing before me…inside me…

Sadness…fear….loss….confusion….disillusionment…

Kaleidoscope…

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Building a new dream…

What will it look like?

It is intangible…elusive…vague…

I sense it there nonetheless….

Beckoning to me…

Whispering my name….

Speaking to my heart…

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Come to me…

Every step you take brings you closer to me…

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I cannot find you…

I cannot see you…

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I cannot reveal myself….yet…

Hope it says softly….

Dream again…

It will all be so very beautiful…

Just wait…

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Impatient…I beg…

Please…please…tell me…

Just one hint…a glimmer…

A direction…

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Not yet…you must wait…have faith…

Keep dreaming…

Keep hoping…

Keep going…

One new step after another…

Soon you will find you are here…

You will know what dream has come…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee

Evermore…

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There on a sandy seashore…
Waves crashing…
Warm gentle breeze…caresses seductively…
Softly blowing…playing with my hair…

I sit and stare…
Majesty of the sea…
Escaping reality…

All senses heightened…
Suddenly aware of everything…and nothing…

Watching…waiting…
Sand between my toes….
Salty spray envelopes softly…enticing…gently…

Tranquillity…
The sea whispers…

Secrets of the ages…
Eternal treasures…

Brought ashore for me to explore…
Gifts to see, touch, discover…
Cherish…

Footprints in the sand…
Trail of my journey…
Washed away…nevermore…

Till the next tide…

When there’s even more to explore…

Evermore…

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Poem Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee  ~ Photo Credit © Robyn Lee

I would like to express my most sincere gratitude and appreciation to Robyn for generously sharing her gorgeous photographs in this collaboration with me.

Thank you Robyn ~Dearest friend ♥♥!! ~

One…

 One step…

One word…

One inspiration…

One blog…

One quote…

One poem….

One post….

One compliment…

One encouragement…

One more step…

One more realization…

One more action….

Bringing me closer…

One more piece…

One hope…

An entire dream being built …

By adding one…

Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee