My Very Essence…

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  I write because I love words…

More than that…

I am utterly infatuated, fascinated, increasingly enamored with them…

their ability to express anything and everything one would desire…

 So very many decadently delightful and exquisitely evocative ways…

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I write to release pent up thoughts…emotions, hopes, fears, dreams…

Endless expressions of me…

Who I am…why I am…where I wish to go in this journey of life…

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Not only is writing my catharsis, it is unceasingly shaping me…

I quite literally am writing myself into who I am…

who I am becoming…who I will be…

My personal revolution…

A metamorphosis via a plethora of beloved words…

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If you wonder why I write..the above is the best answer I’m able to give you…

Perhaps that also explains why I write so often of the inability to

express words exactly how or when I would wish…

To put words to the vague…the intangible…the elusive…

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Some people call it writer’s block…

I call it amputation…

Without my beloved words…

I lose myself…my voice…my very essence…

I am only as unique as the words I choose…

The emotions…the feelings conjured by their purposeful placement.

It is my insistent compulsion to continually do so in ever more very varied ways…

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You need look no further…

For this is who I am…wholly and completely me…

To be found…

In each word I write…

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

   

In A Moment…

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       In A Moment…

     You can laugh…

      You can cry….

          You can behold the most beautiful things…

     You can have your breath taken away…

       You can experience excruciating agony…

      You can cry tears of joy…

            You can be given devastating news..

      You can smile…

      You can create unforgettable memories…

      You can fall in love…

      You can brighten someones day…

      You can give your heart away…

      You can walk away from love…

      You can break a heart…

      You can mend a heart…

       All this and more you can do in a moment…

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      Cherish every moment…

       For it’s not how much time you have…

      It’s the moments you fill it with…

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Enigma…

Each day we face similar choices depending on daily scenario’s. Recently…I have been reminded of how I was feeling a year ago and so with that I present….  ~ Enigma

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 There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

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I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

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The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

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I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

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Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

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Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

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  ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅ 

Imprint…

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Imprint

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I never thought it could be like this…

I never thought you could imprint so strongly and firmly fixed to me…in me… that I find it hard to think of anything…now that you’re gone…

I’ll always remember how you came to me…how you wove into each facet of my life…with so much happiness and joy…I smile just thinking of yours…

Your laugh…your embrace…the taste of your kiss…memories so vivid and strong they follow me to sleep… where dreams and impossibilities rule…where time and distance do not exist except as a construct to recreate each perfect moment we shared…

Apropos… for you are my dream…a dream I could touch…could revel in for but a brief time before I had to let you go…

With promises…love and a kiss…you were gone…leaving a hole inside me where you dwelt completely…too briefly…

I shall fill myself with each memory…reliving them to cement them inside my heart…my very soul…

Until…

You return to me and once again dance me to the stars…

Once again ignite every wondrous and magical feeling…

Once again tell me I am yours…as you are mine…

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             Christina ~

Enigma…

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There on a path to future lies converging trails…

One reminds me of better days long gone…

One leads to the promise of future…

~*~

I sit…think…ponder…

Why does one necessarily negate the other?

Conflicted confusion…

~*~

The future is hope, risk, love, heartbreak, having, losing…

As is life in all of its ups, downs and all arounds…

Tumultuous emotions wash over me as I wonder which path…

All the while knowing, as I always have, that life moves in one direction…

~*~

I cry silent hidden tears as the truth permeates me…

Time moves in one direction…

Always to the future…

Never to past…

I know this and yet…

It feels as though letting go of the past means it truly is gone…

~*~

Two paths converge into one…

I know I must take the one to the future, because that is the way of life…

Always moving forward despite anyone or anything…

Time is an enigma which marches on irreverent of feeling…

Void of thought or emotion…

We choose to move with it or forever be trapped in the loneliness of the black void…

I will no longer be trapped in the void…

~*~

Sweet encouraging voices beckon me to life, irregardless of the risk I know it brings…

I follow time’s path because of hope that will wash away melancholy…

I take the leap of faith..

Knowing only one thing for sure…

Time marches ever forward and now I am its companion…

One step…

Here I go…

~*~

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