So, this is officially my first post…I have a lot to say about the past…the present…and my dreams for the future. For now my posts may be short…some may be interesting, some you may have heard already (If you know me in person), and some may be from my phone as soon as I have that figured out.
I wanted somewhere to post my thoughts, random quotes, and musings that would end up out in the cosmos somewhere. I guess this is that place.
As for the title of this blog, well I was happily married for almost 20 years when in January of 2010 I almost died of H1N1 & double pneumonia. The doctors said it would take 6 or more months to heal from that devastating event. Four months later, my husband, Duane, was killed suddenly in a motorcycle accident…leaving myself and three children (18-year-old daughter Jordan, 12-year-old son Jack, and a 10-year-old daughter Emma) to a whole new world without him. There was quite the dramatic/traumatic event of fighting for the house we’ve lived in for 12 years. See, my in-laws owned the home and decided less than a year after we lost Duane to sell our home. Long sad, tragic, jaw-dropping story…short version? I/we officially own our home now (as of a few weeks ago) and are safe and secure in the fact that we will move when “we” want to!
I do want to give a huge shout out and thank you to my mother…she was there for me and my 10-day stay in the hospital while I was fighting to live and she’s been there for me since through the darkest of days. Your my hero mom…don’t ever forget it!!!
I didn’t want to get into all of that because honestly, it’s been going on so long I’m really ready to move forward with my life. I am now a single mother who has to provide for and raise 3…well okay technically 2 children on my own. But let’s face it…how many of us were really grown up at 18? Especially with the loss of her father at age 16?
So, in short this blog is about me putting the pieces together to form a new life. All those new things out there waiting to be experienced and goals to strive for, most importantly a whole new life to live!
It is my hope that this little piece of me out in the cosmos will be a cool place to visit frequently as I figure out this new life, new me…maybe it will be sad sometimes, funny or quirky –perhaps thought-provoking, and just maybe you might learn something too! After all, through the last 2 years I’ve become quite the expert on human behavior though the toughest course of all…life!
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∼ Reconstructing Christina ∼ 
I just love you, dear lady. I am honored to call you my friend.
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Ditto dear sweet friend!!! Thank you for being there through my ‘dark valley’!! I am the one who is honored to call you my friend! <3!!
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I’m very proud of you, reading this I feel emotionally powerless or weak as a human being. Which is a greater measure of how strong you’ve become. I can imagine how everyday is a journey, one that adds value and new meaning to who your becoming, many blessing to you the journey and your family.
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Thank you so much! It’s definitely been a long…very very long…journey and each day is new and, if looked for, full of blessings! Like my new and very appreciated friends here!
I appreciate you friend! Blessings!~
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Oh Christina… I did not realize what your backstory was, somehow missed this post and then after reading today’s poem looked at your tags and linked here. My heart breaks reading, and by some uncanny force, I somehow felt you had lost your partner this way all along. How I could know that I’m not certain, perhaps there were clues in the quotes, or our exchanges. You brave and courageous woman ~ overcoming not only this horrible physical illness but then facing such a monumental emotional loss as well. I can only take a very long sigh right now — exhaling all the hurt and trauma you have endured for you..and then a large inhale – hoping to fill your spirit with open and promise. I can tell you have so much to give and so much to live ahead of you — just another ‘intuitive’ feeling I have. You are here – you are moving forward, you are writing your heart ~ it is all good Christina. Deep breaths and big hugs from me ~ Lots of Love sweet friend… R
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Robyn, you are such a welcomed bright ray of light into my world that has been dark for so long. I have a few special people in my life that have and do make a huge difference… it’s just been so long to hear such loving,sincere,encouraging words inspiring me to dig deeper and explore writing more and in ways I never ever thought I would.
You are an incredible blessing to me sweet friend!! The things I have shared are but few compared to all that has happened these last two years. You are right with all of your intuitions…and am praying you continue to be right about what the future holds.
I am grateful to know you and share this journey with you!! You continue to be a HUGE inspiration for me. Thank you for being so empathetic and understanding. Love, Hugs & Blessings!! ~
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Christina, I was going to say ‘good luck in life’ but then I thought, no. We make our own luck and I have a feeling you’re going to be fine. As with most of us bloggers and writers we need to put pen to paper (or fingers to the keyboard). Keep doing that – for you and for us. Keep smiling and enjoy life – there’s so much more to come 🙂
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Thank you! I sincerely appreciate your thoughts 🙂 It does help to get the words out of my head and onto paper/screen. Your comment made me smile so I am well on my way there! I shall most definitely take your advice and just keep smiling and enjoying life! 🙂 Blessings to you!! ~
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Reconstructingchristina,
I’m a little speechless!
I’m glad I got to know you a little better through reading this post.
Amazing what this place does to you sometimes…the power of words. The effect they can have on another person. Yours…had an effect on me.
Quite possibly the best first post I have ever read. Thank you for being so brutally honest.
Slapppshot
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I really thought I had already responded as this is probably one of the sweetest compliments/comments I have ever gotten. Please accept my apology for not responding sooner. I’m just so very touched that this meant something…that it had an effect on you. Your compliment about my first post is just…well…I’m speechless.
You’re absolutely right about ‘this place’…and the power of words!!! I am very honored you wrote to tell me your thoughts. Thank you so very much!! Really…means the world to me! Really!
Blessings!
Christina~
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Hi Christina,
I picked up your link from a comment on slapppshot, and I agree with his comment completely.
Life can be so cruel sometimes.
I wish you all the luck in the world with your journey.
love n hugs xxx
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Thank you so very much for your kind sweet words and of course the love and hugs — never can get too many of those!!
I really do appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts and encouragement with me! Thanks again 🙂 Hugs! ~
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Ashamed. Had not read this until now. Love you even more.
Hugs to you and your children.
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Oh…please don’t be!! Or you will make me sad…I do so appreicate you dear sweet friend!! Thank you for the hugs, and the love…sending some to you as well!! xxxx
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I am so glad I decided to look at your older posts because I now know what a truly wonderful women you are filled with so much strength after everything you have been through. Your in-laws are way beyond evil, to try and sell the home their grandchildren live in a year after their father dying sickens me.
For you to have started building a foundation on your own after nearly dying and losing your loved one makes you truly inspirational and to be bringing 3 kids up on your own, that must be really tough.
Anyway Christina, I’m so glad to have met you,
x
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Oh!! Chris, that was just so sweet of you to share! I am more than truly honored to be an inspiration…to even one person!! I have a LOT of emotional healing to deal with (probably why the poems) because they really got inside my head and messed me up pretty good when I was so very vulnerable. 😦 I am more than grateful for my children, they are my source of strength and my reason to continue on each day and FIGHT for them!! And for me…I used to be a very strong self reliant person…the life, pain, and troubles tore me up…then that year — two years– of hell really got to me!!
I so appreciate your sweet words and am more than so very way grateful to have met you. You, like Robyn, are such a source of inspiration for me to keep fighting and keep going. Thank you so very much for being my awesome new sweet friend and for being wonderfully uniquely you!!
Sending huge hugs and tons of healing energy to you!! ~
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I’ve just gone back to the beginning of your blog and I must say, in the three months since you started it, you have let us into your life and shared with us some of your darkest, most upsetting parts of your life.
I am honoured to be able to call you friend, and your strength truly is unrivalled.
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