You Said…

“The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.”

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You said I was beautiful…

You made me feel like a goddess…

You said you loved me…

And proved it at every opportunity…

You said we were a perfect fit…

Like puzzle pieces…

You said if any one made me cry you’d make them cry…

And you did…

You said I was perfect…

When I didn’t feel remotely pretty…

We sang… We danced… We loved…

So passionately…completely…breathtakingly fantastic…

We were two pieces who became one whole…

You said you wanted to grow old with me…

You didn’t…

You left me…

You said you couldn’t guarantee to love me for the rest of my life

but you would love me for the rest of yours….

And you did…

Like a magnificent opus…

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Each piece actually has “I Love You” written on it…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee

69 thoughts on “You Said…

  1. sometimes, you belong to some place which is better suited for your unending personification of love and care. But then you’ve this formal compulsory existence to live first – the mortal one.
    Still, there are people who would leave an eternal bond within the void, which is slowly filled with courage and hope, that lasts a lifetime.
    This life is too precious not because you would live it for someone, but because someone has lived it for you.
    I know the feel with which you’ve written this one…no body would’ve done anymore better.
    To love….and the way it sets us free.

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    • Prashant, you always say the most encouraging, thoughtful, empathetic, wonderful things! “Eternal bond within the void”…yes, exactly! Hope and courage….that’s what I’m working on now.

      Today I have beautiful healthy children, we get to stay in our home, and I have incredible, amazing, awesome, wonderfully supportive and inspiring new friends here. So yes…hope! Thank you for you amazingly insightful thoughts sweet friend!!

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  2. “You said you couldn’t guarantee to love me for the rest of my life
    but you would love me for the rest of yours… and you did… like a magnificent opus.”

    absolutely beautiful. i am deeply moved by his love, but more so by yours. it is amazing how much emotion a verse can hold, and your verses are brimming with so much love, joy, promise and melancholy. indeed, your sadness makes him immortal. i can see now that you deserve this line more than i do.

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    • Thank you Neil…very much, coming from you…this really means a lot to me. Really!!
      I am most grateful for your empathy and insight on this one.
      As for the line…all great writers have lines that can be used to express different things for different people, I still say it’s yours….but appreciate your comment nonetheless!
      As a brilliant blogger I read recently said in one of his truly beautiful writings…..a star that burns twice as bright burns half as long.
      I’m guessing you know what I’m saying… Hugs ~
      I am grateful for you and your thoughts friend! Hugs ~

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  3. Beautiful Christina, beautiful and so sad for so many reasons.
    “You said you couldn’t guarantee to love me for the rest of my life
    but you would love me for the rest of yours….
    And you did…”

    I know you’ll never forget him, your love is still there plain to see in these words.
    A truly moving post Christina, a post of love and loss, it is enchanting.
    Thank you for posting and sharing
    Thinking of you
    love n hugs
    xxx

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    • Thank you Seadog, very much! Yes, I will always love him…but I like to think I’m a better person for having shared so much of my life with him. He was a truly amazing man… Sometimes the sadness slips out, but I know he would want me to have all the best of life and happiness in my future…
      Love and hugs sweet friend! xxxx

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      • Christina,
        I’ve been thinking about this poem all day yesterday, and told my wife last night about it.
        She thought it was great too, and that was without knowing some of the hardship and pain that you have gone through.Once I told her what had happened, she was even more appreciative of it.
        One of her comments was how young you both looked, and how poignant your picture is… all the hopes and desires, dreams and happy times, looking to the future, full of optimism.

        With your permission I would like to reblog this entry.
        Sometimes a piece of writing comes around that hits you right in the heart, and makes a connection.
        “You said ” is definitely one of them, and I would like others to share that connection, if you dont mind.

        Thank you for posting this Christina, it must have been really difficult for you. He sounds like a great man and I would liked to have met him.
        Love n hugs and blessings to you, take care 🙂
        xxx

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        • I’m so very honored that this touched you so, that you shared with your wife, and that you want to share it at your place. I would be even more honored if you shared this. I do appreciate you friend, and that you would check with me first.

          I guess it’s been brewing inside…this blog is about all the pieces of me and he was a HUGE piece….I just wanted to share that with all my awesome new friends 🙂 It was difficult, but…sort of freeing too. Although the many many heart touching comments did made me cry…more than once… 🙂

          I hope both you and your wife have a beautiful day…thank you both for thinking of me 🙂
          Love, hugs, and blessings!! xxxx

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          • Thank you Christina, for your lovely message and for your permission to reblog 🙂
            Love, hugs and blessings to you to
            xxx

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  4. My sweet lovely Christina, I was there. You met on the night of you celebrating your 21st birthday, how cool was that! He asked another man in your party at the dance club if he could introduce him to the beautiful young lady on the dance floor. For the next 20 years the two of you danced a dance of love. In all my life I have never seen a man love and cherish a woman more than he did you and you returned that love in equal measure. Yes indeed. A magnificent Opus!

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  5. So beautiful Christina… really touched me. I read this in the morning but did not have the focus to comment, and then thought about it all day. First – your photo on top — we have so many (my husband and me) just like it. You two look like kids ..and you were I’m sure, as we were. It’s a wonderful shot – nostalgic and real. Your words — just breathtaking – and I love that it’s almost as though your are able to communicate with him… I believe energetically he can get that… it’s lovely. He gets nearly a perfect score too — less his promise to grow old with you 😦 which he completely intended to keep, I know. I read Penny’s comment about how you met at a dance and he asked a young man you were with if he could be introduced…. this is exactly how I met my husband – I was only 13 at the time though so it wasn’t a Dance Club, but a youth dance 🙂 We didn’t go steady till I turned 16 and then in college were allowed to date others but alway came back to one another.
    I love the puzzle pieces analogy – and ‘magnificent opus’ ~ all very beautiful Christina, l and though sad – I am seeing this as another wonderful healing piece for you… Blessings Friend – in my heart ! xo

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    • Robyn, thank you so much…your encouragement means the world to me! Really! Yes, this was an older picture…I thought it sort of went with this out of all the others. It would be wonderful if he “Could See”…maybe he can. I like to think he’d be proud of all that’s happened and how I’ve stood my ground!

      Yes, I think each ‘piece’ comes out here in my writing and then it’s out of me and I can let it go…I know you know what I mean 🙂

      What a sweet story about you and your husband! True love always drifts back to each other 🙂 I’m sure you both have a very rich history!

      It was funny, my grandmother actually sent me a birthday card for my 21st and said “Maybe this will be the year you meet your prince charming”. She was right. I still have the card! 🙂

      Thank you again for sharing your sweet praise and enchanting story of how you and your husband met. And as always for inspiring and encouraging me…you are so very cherished! Much much love and hugs ❤ !!!

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  6. There was a thing I had to tell you
    since you knew my soul through your eyes.
    In the moment of serenity so longed for,
    closer to you, my mortal worth lies.

    Piousness in the love I had
    fuelled my will to be a better man.
    To carry your graceful charm, beautiful,
    I tried my best – as best as a lover can.

    Somewhere, HE just felt so different
    or, perhaps, jealous of me being with you.
    He never told me to complete my song,
    holier than his prayers – so complete and true.

    Now, when I see you from here
    I feel stronger and so absolutely fond.
    I know, in your heart, I am still alive.
    As you smile with courage and beyond.

    (I have no idea what made me write this…but it surely doesn’t “belong” to me…I could not have posted on my blog)

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    • You just take my words away from me…this is so wonderously beautiful! I read it, cried, thought about how to respond….read it, cried…grabbed the tissue…and here I sit without words…yet again.

      Thank you so so much for this precious gift cherished friend!!!

      Can I I post this…share this? This is far too amazing to be tucked away in the comments… seriously!
      Sending lots of hugs and all my gratitude to you….

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      • I guess it belongs to you…I mean I’ve got know idea how it found you. i was just looking at the pic…i was looking at him, and you..and the perfect both of you…just happened…plz, it’s yours..not mine..

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        • It is a wonderful precious gift…I am most anxious to share. I would be very honored to share that you wrote it…unless you don’t want me to. So, let me know…and again I thank you for being so open this just came to you!! I’m still just so incredibly speechless! Hugs!!

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    • Thank you George! Been kind of a emotional storm (both good and bad) last few days, so am late to reply…really wanted to thank you and tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your thoughts! 🙂

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  7. Reblogged this on Introspection and commented:
    For some reason this post has really connected with me.
    Sadly, the handsome young man in the photo is no longer with us.
    He was married for 20 years before he was killed in a motorbike accident, leaving behind a wife and 3 children.
    His name was Duane, her name is Christina. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I have.

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    • Thank you again so very much friend for sharing this! Words won’t help me now to tell you how much I appreciate you and your thoughtfulness! Love and Hugs!!

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  8. Years back I broke up with “I think he’s the one”. He, too, had promised love & care & everything else. but we broke up. I’m not sore because I knew I was *loved* truly for as long as we were “together”.

    Your poem is amazing. it not only expressed your feelings but woke mine too. I’m sorry I bumped into you so late, but i’m here to stay [in wordpress’s words – *follow*]

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    • Thank you so much for your sweet praise of my poem! No apologies 🙂 I’m glad you’re here now! 🙂 Thank you so much for the follow, I’ll look forward to visiting you too!

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  9. This tugged at my heart Christina…I am so sorry for your loss, yet glad you got to experience such profound love even though it ended so soon.

    Hugs and live your way.

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    • Thank you so much for your sweet sweet words and empathy….am so very appreciative! I’m sorry I didn’t reply sooner, was overwhelmed (in a good way) with all the support and love from amazing comments likes yours. Hugs and Blessings!

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    • Thank you so much, yes definitely cherish every moment with every loved one and friend…then there is never anything to regret! Blessings ~

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  10. That is one of the most beautiful and heartfelt things I have ever read. I wish everyone could experience a love like you had and I’m so sorry it was snatched from you too soon. Much love x

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    • Oh! Thank you so much Dory…it just spilled out of me, I guess he inspired so very much in me – even still 🙂 I do so appreciate your very sweet thoughts and love!! Hugs and Blessings!!

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  11. Wow this is so beautiful Christina, such a story of true love which I believe is so very very rare, he stuck to his word and clearly worshiped the ground you walked on, he will still be with you watching over the love of his life.x

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    • Thank you Chris…it was very rare…I wandered the desert of depression to think it was gone forever…that epic love. Now…I do have hope for the future, and what it may bring. Thank you for your kind sweet words…really means so very much to me! Hugs!

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      • And you will again wonder the desert, only the next you will find true love rather than be drowned with depression. You should have hope because you are strong and you deserve happiness. You are very welcome Christina and hugs back to you.x

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  12. That’s a beautiful photo and some beautiful words to accompany it… I don’t know what else to say, except… I wish you nothing but happiness, my (new) friend 🙂

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