Diaphanous Dreamscape….

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I look back trying to find illumination…
Seeking my inspiration…
Pivotal points of perception…
I search for my words…
They’ve left me in the desert of my reality…

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Transport me to my dreamscape…
Let me reside there…
Where words float around me like butterflies of serenity…
Whispering promises of peace…
A balm to soothe my soul…
My self expression…needing release…aching for it…

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I search the depths of my heart…
I see the tears…
The sadness…
The scars I choose to wear inside…
Remembrance of days gone…memories packed away…

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I see with hindsight a succession of happenings…
I see the struggle…
The very battle for my sanity ~ end with the discovery of my voice…
My words…
Each little nuance distinctively mine…

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I see pieces of me creating my sanctuary…
My oasis built from the words woven in my mind…
All ways there waiting for me….
A bouquet of thought…

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 This is my diaphanous dreamscape…
A reflection of me…
My creation…
Born from the ashes of my former life…
Now the foundation on which I rebuild….
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     ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

For Loss of Words ~ Second Anniversary…

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Two years ago, on June 17th, 2012, I wrote my first post for this blog. I had no idea then all that could happen…would happen…it most certainly marked an epoch in my life. An epoch I am ceaselessly grateful for and feel it one of the most impactful changes in my life.

Shortly thereafter, I met Neil, my admiration of his writing was instantaneous, as was our friendship. On August 30, 2012 we published our first collaboration. It was such an incredible honor to read his words which I so admire. I had never attempted anything like this before…it was the beginning of future audio and video collaborations with Neil, followed by a few vlogs of my own.

 An excerpt from my “Christina ~ Out Loud” page…

Neil…thank you so much sweet sir…you are a star who will always shine so bright in my night sky. A friend who helped pull me out of myself and try something new and so so fun!”

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I wish to say thank you to everyone who has been along this journey with me, encouraged me, inspired me, and given me your steadfast support… with special gratitude to Neil who opened the door to new possibilities…new dreams…who encouraged me out of my shell.

Each one of you add so much to my life…

Transforming it from darkness into a rainbow of dreams…

~

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     ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

Melody of Silence…

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Reflections of silence resonate…
Dissonant deliberation…
Among the ethereal scintilla…
Echoes speak in deafening taciturnity…
Melody of Silence…

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Through the maze of countless corridors…
Myriad of memories…
A forest of dreams…of hopes…
Therein lies my hidden sanctuary…
Dormant…
Awaiting its incendiary denouement…

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Ephemeral illumination…
Fragments of time reminisce…
Whispering in the familiar shadows…
 Euphony…
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     ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

Subliminal Madness…

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It begins with a thought…

A revelation…

Usually bound in truth…

Then it propagates endless pieces of an unsolvable puzzle…

It worms its way through you…

Permeating Peace…

Replacing it with doubt…fear…

Insidious imaginings…

Every thought becomes tainted with it…

It increases exponentially…

Invasive…

Intruding every facet of your life…

Your dreams once made you strong…

Now they’ve become the manifestation of your subliminal madness…

Become waking confusion…

Conflict…

Psychological war…

Devastation…

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A small ray of light shines through…

Amber sunrise…

You feel its warmth reach for you…

You watch it ascend wondering if its golden rays can reach you…

So far buried in your darkness…

It whispers…

Beckoning…

Inexorably…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

 

Hidden…

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Can you read the space between my words?

Though unsaid…perhaps subtly felt?

The very tool of my destruction…
Simultaneously my resurrection…

Delicately haunting…

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The more rare…
The more innovative…
Probable possibilities of persuasion…
Obscuring me…
Shielding…
Protecting…

Can I tempt you?
Fascinate you?
Entice you?

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Would you look beyond this masquerade I’ve so cleverly crafted?

Would you truly seek me with an exigent desire to unequivocally know me?

Would you rather believe the interpretation of my rendition…

Or keep me here where my words only serve…

Emulation’s illumination…

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Should you wish it…

I am here…
Hidden…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

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 Gorgeous photo by MariaAmanda ~ deviantart

Iridescence…

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She watches the cerulean twilight shimmer iridescence…

Thoughts swirl like butterflies in a dance of dreams…
Glitter inspiration…
Igniting illumination…
Kaleidoscope…

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Lost in amongst these very thoughts….

She writes her soul…
Bared for all…
Illuminated…
Transparent…
Vulnerable visions lie cloaked in ephemeral euphoria…

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Yes…
Here are her words…her voice…
Her essence…
Growing in Night’s elucidation…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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Echo Remembrance…

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Facile vagaries
A whisper through time…
Echo remembrance…
Refulgent prisms beam fluid vibration…
Perception’s promise…
Elusive…
Vague…
Enigmatic…
Longing…
Needing…
Reverberating…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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Flirtation With Denial…

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Presumptive perception…
Hypocritical hypotheses…
She never knew…
Never cared to find truth…
Too mired in bitter disappointment…
Averting ignorance…
Blatant flirtation with denial…
Feeding self-gratification’s insistent need…

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She only cared for indulgence…
Her voracious need to be desired…
No thought to its destructive aftermath…
She doesn’t mind the cost for she thinks it’s someone else’s debt…

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Duteous devotion…
Enchantment’s spell broken…
Crystalline vision…
Truth’s dichotomy revealed in Ego’s insatiable delight…

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She seeks selfish seduction…
Unknowingly denying herself what she needs most…
True love’s healing embrace…

~

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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Gorgeous photo by Nataly1st ~ Deviantart

Captivated…

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You look into me…
Me into you…
We meet there in the middle…
Captivated…

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Need drives its own insistent desire to inception…
Embraced in this perfect moment…
Held by the enigmatic nature of will…
Unable to look away…
Locked in place….
Locked in time…

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Don’t look away…
Keep me here as I memorize your soul with mine…
Let us stay suspended in wonder…
Before Reality’s ocean rips us apart…

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We are helpless in its wake…
Fate’s cruelty using us as pawns for pleasure…
Neither here nor there…

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Our moment permanently fixed in the stars for all time…
Love…without completion…without end…

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Forever captivated…
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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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╰⊰ This poem is the last in a series of four originally posted back in January 2013. For more information please see this post which explains my bringing #ThrowbackThursday here to my blog. This series marked a pivotal transition in my writing which shortly thereafter became known as my “Dreamscape”.

It is has been so much fun to look back in time this past week with you. Many of you have been with me from the beginning of this journey, some have joined my journey along the way…

I wish to extend, again, my gratitude and voluminous appreciation for each and every one of you. Your encouragement and support has truly impacted my life in so many ways I cannot even express.

Thank you…ever so much! ⊱╮

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Gorgeous photo by ily623 Deviantart

Divine Torment…

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Can you feel my presence?

I can feel yours…

Enticing me…

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Sometimes you’re like a soft breeze…

A delicate whisper…

Gentle and knowing…

Beckoning me…

Sometimes you’re like waves crashing…

washing over me…through me…intoxicating me…

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Can you feel it?

That illusory electric spark…

Magnetic…

Addictive…

Taunting…

Seductive…

Divine torment…

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Divine Torment

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You want me?

Come find me…

Make up your mind.

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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╰⊰ This poem (three of four that went together) was originally posted back in January 2013. For more information please see this post which explains why I’m sharing these again. This series of poems marked a pivotal  transition in my writing which shortly thereafter became known as …my “Dreamscape⊱╮