For Loss of Words ~ Second Anniversary…

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Two years ago, on June 17th, 2012, I wrote my first post for this blog. I had no idea then all that could happen…would happen…it most certainly marked an epoch in my life. An epoch I am ceaselessly grateful for and feel it one of the most impactful changes in my life.

Shortly thereafter, I met Neil, my admiration of his writing was instantaneous, as was our friendship. On August 30, 2012 we published our first collaboration. It was such an incredible honor to read his words which I so admire. I had never attempted anything like this before…it was the beginning of future audio and video collaborations with Neil, followed by a few vlogs of my own.

 An excerpt from my “Christina ~ Out Loud” page…

Neil…thank you so much sweet sir…you are a star who will always shine so bright in my night sky. A friend who helped pull me out of myself and try something new and so so fun!”

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I wish to say thank you to everyone who has been along this journey with me, encouraged me, inspired me, and given me your steadfast support… with special gratitude to Neil who opened the door to new possibilities…new dreams…who encouraged me out of my shell.

Each one of you add so much to my life…

Transforming it from darkness into a rainbow of dreams…

~

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     ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

Flirtation With Denial…

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Presumptive perception…
Hypocritical hypotheses…
She never knew…
Never cared to find truth…
Too mired in bitter disappointment…
Averting ignorance…
Blatant flirtation with denial…
Feeding self-gratification’s insistent need…

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She only cared for indulgence…
Her voracious need to be desired…
No thought to its destructive aftermath…
She doesn’t mind the cost for she thinks it’s someone else’s debt…

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Duteous devotion…
Enchantment’s spell broken…
Crystalline vision…
Truth’s dichotomy revealed in Ego’s insatiable delight…

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She seeks selfish seduction…
Unknowingly denying herself what she needs most…
True love’s healing embrace…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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Gorgeous photo by Nataly1st ~ Deviantart

Captivated…

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You look into me…
Me into you…
We meet there in the middle…
Captivated…

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Need drives its own insistent desire to inception…
Embraced in this perfect moment…
Held by the enigmatic nature of will…
Unable to look away…
Locked in place….
Locked in time…

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Don’t look away…
Keep me here as I memorize your soul with mine…
Let us stay suspended in wonder…
Before Reality’s ocean rips us apart…

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We are helpless in its wake…
Fate’s cruelty using us as pawns for pleasure…
Neither here nor there…

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Our moment permanently fixed in the stars for all time…
Love…without completion…without end…

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Forever captivated…
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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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╰⊰ This poem is the last in a series of four originally posted back in January 2013. For more information please see this post which explains my bringing #ThrowbackThursday here to my blog. This series marked a pivotal transition in my writing which shortly thereafter became known as my “Dreamscape”.

It is has been so much fun to look back in time this past week with you. Many of you have been with me from the beginning of this journey, some have joined my journey along the way…

I wish to extend, again, my gratitude and voluminous appreciation for each and every one of you. Your encouragement and support has truly impacted my life in so many ways I cannot even express.

Thank you…ever so much! ⊱╮

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Gorgeous photo by ily623 Deviantart

Divine Torment…

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Can you feel my presence?

I can feel yours…

Enticing me…

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Sometimes you’re like a soft breeze…

A delicate whisper…

Gentle and knowing…

Beckoning me…

Sometimes you’re like waves crashing…

washing over me…through me…intoxicating me…

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Can you feel it?

That illusory electric spark…

Magnetic…

Addictive…

Taunting…

Seductive…

Divine torment…

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Divine Torment

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You want me?

Come find me…

Make up your mind.

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜

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╰⊰ This poem (three of four that went together) was originally posted back in January 2013. For more information please see this post which explains why I’m sharing these again. This series of poems marked a pivotal  transition in my writing which shortly thereafter became known as …my “Dreamscape⊱╮

Whisper Love….

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Softly spoken…
Evocative words…
My drug of choice…
Intoxicate me with your whispered touch…
Make the intangible…visceral…
Tracing my soul…my body… with each spoken affirmation of your love…your desire…
Transcendence via provocative susurrus…

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Evocative exigency…
Envelope me with the warmth of your breath…
Surrounding…
Pervading….
Intoxicating…

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Yes please…
Whisper love…

Tell me your secrets…
Share your soul with mine…
Consummate this love…
Unlock me…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

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Gorgeous photo by Princess-of-Shadows Deviantart ~

Consume Me…

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It would be so easy to open myself to your love…

To fall fast and furious…

Fiercely intense chain reaction…

Combustion inside and out…

A mere thought of you the ignition…

My longing…my loneliness…my needs…the fuel for this fire…

This exigency flame enveloping us….

Your words caress from the inside out…

Ubiquitous desire…

Fulfilling yet….

Leave me aching….needing….wanting…

More…always more…

An addiction that is what you’ve become…

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Whether you will enhance me or destroy me remains unknown…

It would be so easy to discover which…

If only I could open the door to my soul and let you in…

Let you consume me….

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

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This is my entry for The Speakeasy #152 ~ Prompt “It would be so easy…”  ~

Click to participate or see the other offerings if you wish!

The Speakeasy #152

Dream’s Symphony…

 

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(In A Dream…)

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She closes her eyes to watch the parade of allemande memories dance
through her mind…as if choreographed…
Only these memories are of him and her…
Desire mixed with love…
Creating a symphony out of each detail of their time together…

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His eyes imprinted in her mind…
So full of adoration and his love for her…
His gaze a silent sonnet…
 Expressing devotion through laconic libretto of prose…

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His caress forever fixed as an indelible mark upon her senses…
Heightening them with only a thought…
Lingering coalescence of touch resonates…

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His voice the song in her heart…
Magical melody…
Soothing while caressing her with each word…
Such divine elegance…

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This dance of love keeping synchronous rhythm…
 Every step…every breath…every heartbeat shared….
Building the chorus of their song…
Keeping time…once elusive…now at their leisure…

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Each memory adding to the one before…
As it is being composed with each new moment…
Amplifying its crescendo…

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

All You Wish For…

 

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I can be all you wish for…all you need…
I can recreate myself into your most sought after desires…
I can fulfill you in ways others cannot…
In ways others have never been able to before…
I can make you feel so loved, so longed for…so desired…

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I can become your dream…
Your muse…
I can inspire you in ways hitherto unknown…
I can make you feel like a King…
I can love you with all that I am… 

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How I can do this?  
Because I am a woman… 

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We all possess these attributes and so much more…
If we will but allow love to permeate us… 
There is one caveat…to this we do for you…

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We must be so loved in return…

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 Even more…
We must be willing to risk it all…
For love…

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       ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

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Gorgeous Photo by LadyDarkRaven 〜

The Place You Cannot Go…

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The place you cannot go….

It is buried deep within….

Safely hidden from all external forces….

It is where my heart resides locked up tight….

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I think of it often….

When hurtful words, actions, and circumstance permeate me….

Irregardless of their intent….they hurt….more than I can endure….

Inducing remembrance of why I wear my façade….

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As my soul sinks deeper within its faux protection…

There can be no hurt, no pain, no disenchantment….

Impenetrable, as only I hold the key….

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If I let you in, where you would wish to be….

The internal torment becomes unbearable with any action contrary to that which you wish to project….

Speak to me of love….whisper words of comfort…seek my trust….

All for not….for I will not let you in…

To potentially risk that which I have struggled…fought…

conquered with sheer determination….

The inception for this place of protection….

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All I am….

The sanctuary of my essence….

Subsumed in the place you cannot go….

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       ΅〜 ೋ  Christina〜  ೋ 〜΅

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Phantoms of Nostalgia…

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Seasonal daydreams…
Inducement of contemplation…
Crystal clarity colors perfection…
Kaleidoscope…

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September dissipates summertime sadness…
Lost in Autumn’s haze…
Interminable wait…
October’s promise…
Precursor to winter’s wrap…
Undertones of unknown fill the space between…

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Hope meets Dream…
Their collision sparks ignition…
November’s epiphany waits impatiently…
Mists of enchantment permeate dreams… filling them with potentialities…

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Theoretical assumptions…
Phantoms of Nostalgia…
The quintessential question remains anonymous…
Silently demanding detours…

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December hints evocatively at New Year’s renewal…
Presumptive lugubrious thoughts…
Induce Thought’s labyrinth…
Ignoring ignorance…

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Dreams sustain impetuous assumption…
Answers lie cloaked in enigmatic disguise…
Leaving never-ending questions where the Shadows of Temerity roam…

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This is the season yearning…
For illumination…

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Gorgeous photo by LadyUndone Deviantart ~