Silhouette….

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That was the day the sun stopped shining…

That was the day she realized she was dreaming…

Not living…

She was but a semblance of her former self…

An illusion created to protect…

Inevitably…

That very protection became self-induced isolation…

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She had believed everything…

Trusted everyone…

Perhaps naivety reigned…

Perhaps….so very many things…

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Falling into the very disillusionment that woke her to Life’s reality…

She welcomes this descent…

She knows it well…

She’s comfortable here surrounded by familiar phantoms…

All the disconsolate whispers…

Shadow’s silhouette casting the backdrop for a prior dream…

Antecedent of every hope, desire, aspiration…

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She will not cry…

Not one tear…

For they are hers alone…

And only when she is alone will they appear…

~

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    ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina ~  ೋღ 〜΅

Phantoms of Nostalgia…

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Seasonal daydreams…
Inducement of contemplation…
Crystal clarity colors perfection…
Kaleidoscope…

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September dissipates summertime sadness…
Lost in Autumn’s haze…
Interminable wait…
October’s promise…
Precursor to winter’s wrap…
Undertones of unknown fill the space between…

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Hope meets Dream…
Their collision sparks ignition…
November’s epiphany waits impatiently…
Mists of enchantment permeate dreams… filling them with potentialities…

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Theoretical assumptions…
Phantoms of Nostalgia…
The quintessential question remains anonymous…
Silently demanding detours…

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December hints evocatively at New Year’s renewal…
Presumptive lugubrious thoughts…
Induce Thought’s labyrinth…
Ignoring ignorance…

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Dreams sustain impetuous assumption…
Answers lie cloaked in enigmatic disguise…
Leaving never-ending questions where the Shadows of Temerity roam…

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This is the season yearning…
For illumination…

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Gorgeous photo by LadyUndone Deviantart ~

Intoxicating Indulgence…

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(I dream of you….)

An unfathomable force drawing me insistently to you….

Concupiscence…

My dreams sustain me until you can…

Tumultuous torrent of wonderment coalescing begging indulgence…

Your addicting gaze….

Provocative exhilaration igniting me…

Decadent desires unknown ache to be known…

Each day pulling us closer…

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Such is your effect on me….

Your love fills me…

Peaceful waves of serenity caress me…

Perfection of paramount proportions…

Longing…alluring…enticing…

Unceasing extravagant enchantment…

You have imprinted on me….

(I am forever changed…)

I am yours…you are mine…

Only one thing remains….

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Intoxicating Indulgence….

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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

I’ll Be Gone…

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Moment                 

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I’m afraid to love…

To want…to wish…

Dreams…

Hopes…

All of it…

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I feel you calling me to you…

I feel your desire…

I feel your love…

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You’re my strength…  

My knight…

My dream…

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Take my hand…

Pull me close…

Hold me tight…

Don’t let go…

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I’ll love you so well nothing will compare…

I’ll be everything you wish…everything you desire…

I’ll spoil you so well…none but me will

fulfill you so absolutely…

so completely…

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You’ll wonder what I want…

What I need…

How you can fulfill me…

You’ll ask me…

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I’ll change the subject…

I’ll take a step back…

You’ll ask me to open up…

To talk to you…

I’ll be further away…

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Take my hand…

Pull me close…

Hold me tight…

Don’t let go…

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Kiss me our last…

For when you wake…

I’ll be gone…

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Too afraid to risk it all…again

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΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~ ღೋ     〜΅

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The above piece was purely a fictional foray…

or as I like to call it…”Fun With Fiction

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Undone….

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Procession of emotions…

Steady succession of thoughts, so rapid they are unfathomable…

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My mind begs surrender to illusion of peace…

Longing for tranquility of thought creating serenity in my soul…

Momentary glimpses of how the scattered pieces will join together…

One by one a blurry picture of future is forged…

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The quest for answers takes me down the path of distraction…

Unexpected knowledge…

New pieces always adding to the potpourri of thought…

Mirage of the new world…

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Conflicted confusion invades serenity…

Discovered distraction surrounds me…where does it dwell?

More illusion or just a dream within a dream?

Did I unknowingly discover these new pieces?

Adding to the journey of solution…

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I close my eyes and ponder…

Trying to find answers…

They are not forthcoming…

Purposely hidden from me…

Faux reality…

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Surreal scenarios leave me aching for illumination…

Conflicted distraction my new companion…

The very lens through which I see myself…

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Tonight…

I am undone…

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 ΅〜 ೋღ  Christina~  ღೋ      〜΅

Edge of Peripheral…

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Peripheral

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I can almost see you
I know I don’t know you…
Simultaneously, I know everything about you…
You are in my dreams…
In my thoughts…
We meet there occasionally…
There is the known and unknown…
That magical seductive dance that ignites my imagination…
Recognition….
There you are…
Waiting for me…
On the edge of peripheral…

~*~

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Kaleidoscope…

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~*~ What dreams may come…. I sit and ponder…. So many emotions flashing before me…inside me… Sadness…fear….loss….confusion….disillusionment… Kaleidoscope… ~*~ Building a new dream… What will it look like? It is intangible…elusive…vague… I sense it there nonetheless…. Beckoning to me… Whispering … Continue reading

Tell me…

“Speak to me in riddles…

              Speak to me in rhymes…

                              Your words keep me alive…”

~ Sarah McLachlan ~

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Tell me your story…

The one etched in your heart…

The one that makes you hope, laugh, cry…

You can trust me…

I’m always here for you…

In all ways…

Tell me your dreams…

You’re secret desires…

The ones you hide..

Tell me you feel me…

Tell me you know me…

Show me it’s true…

Not a figment of my desirous imagination…

Tell me…

Because I’m someone like you…

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Copyright © 2012 by Christina Brownlee ~

Sanctuary…

“Dreams are illustrations…from the book your soul is writing about you.”

~ Marsha Norman ~

I know I usually post quotes…today though I’m taking a trip off that path to share something with so much meaning it actually hurts and simultaneously epitomizes me and where I’m at…

The music is beautiful and the visuals outstanding. I hope you take a few minutes and watch this…please and thank you.

Christina ~

(I posted lyrics below)

 

Lyrics:

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)
In you and I,

There’s a new land

Angels in flight

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

My sanctuary, my sanctuary,

Yeah where fears and lies melt away

Music in time

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

What’s left of me, what’s left of me, now
I watched you fast asleep

All I fear means nothing
In you and I, there’s a new land

Angels in flight

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

My sanctuary, my sanctuary,

Yeah where fears and lies melt away

Music in time

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

What’s left of me, what’s left of me
snwod dna spu ynam os (so many ups and downs)

My heart’s a battle ground snoitome eurt deen i (I need true emotions)

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

Snoitome eurt deen i (I need true emotions)
You show me how to see that nothing is whole and nothing is broken
In you and I, there’s a new land

Angels in flight

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

My sanctuary, my sanctuary,

Yeah where fears and lies

Melt away

Music in time

Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)

What’s left of me, what’s left of me, now
O0oohhh
My fears, my lies,
Melt away
Wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen i (I need more affection than you know)