Christina ~:

I had the highest honor of getting to read aloud Neil’s amazing poem “For Loss of Words” There are no words to describe what an incredible collaboration this was for me. Thank you Neil…so much!! :D

Originally posted on My Pretzel Logic:

Somebody said pictures speak more than a thousand words. This poem is about love, loss, the art of photography and a million words.  Here is “For Loss of Words” as read by an amazing voice talent and an even more amazing woman, Christina Gregory. I am truly honored, Christina, for lending me your voice to breathe life into one of my favorite works.

(you made my day)

* Amplification or headphone required for best listening.

For Loss of Words (Sit Beside Me Still)
from The Caffeine Chronicles, My Pretzel Logic

 

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Paradox…

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Words string together in my mind like the rushing river….

Lost in the current of thought…

Gone too fast to contemplate…

Hope…excitement…longing…anticipation…

Distraction….

Delusion…

Disquiet….

Paradox…

Hope and Fear cannot live together…

So many words…

So many questions…

So many …too many…

Confusion….

Your sweet voice in my ears like a warm summer breeze…

Soothing…tempting…beckoning…

Delicious distraction…

A dream hidden in reality…

Another paradox…

Dissipating disquiet…

Breathe….just…breathe…

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Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee ~

Inspirational Regenerations…

Okay, so I’m a wee bit behind on these…but you all still love me right?!? :D First I just want to say what an honor it is for me, truly, to be thought of for these awards…just makes me smile!! — In the midst of some most unpleasant shenanigans (see how nice I said that?) going on here before “certain people’s exit out of our lives to a different state”  — This is just an amazing gift…all of them!!!  I would love to answer all the questions for each of these…but I am currently working on something that prevents me (due to time) from giving these the full recognition they deserve. I’ll pre-apologize now.

Please know how incredibly amazing and honored it is for me to be thought of for these awards!!! That being said…here goes — I would like to thank (in random order because I’m just not that organized) Tina Liu from http://astronomybythecosmos.com/ for The Inspiring Blog Award.

Continuing on my theme for breaking rules, I’m only going to nominate  a few people for each award.

The rules – should you choose to accept are — 1) Post Award on your site 2) Thank the person who nominated you. 3) Nominate as many people as you want. 4) If you would like to, ask some questions you’d really like to know the answer to of the people you nominate! Or don’t…it’s all up to you and whichever you choose is/will be fantastic!  5) If you already have the award I’ve nomianted you for and would rather have another…please feel free to take it!! :D

For the Inspiring Blog Award I would like to nominate a few of the many who consistently inspire me ~

Robyn Lee ~ http://throughthehealinglens.com/

Chris ~          http://itsallaboutthedreams.wordpress.com/

Michelle ~     http://michellesomer.wordpress.com

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Next I had the pleasure of receiving a nomination for The Beautiful Blog Award from  http://sharechair.wordpress.com/ .

This is such an honor…all with a wonderful theme (Inspiration) and gorgeous bloggers who thought of me for these awards. 

Please go visit them if you get the chance, I guarantee you will be glad you did!! For the rules ~Please see above for same rules ~

I would like to nominate the following for the Beautiful Blogger Award because they are!! :D

http://readinpleasure.wordpress.com/

http://subhanzein.wordpress.com

http://kokopellibeefreeblog.wordpress.com

http://www.recoverythrumylens.wordpress.com

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Next is an award from Wendy at  http://greenlightlady.wordpress.com/ - I have to admit I’ve not see this award before! I think it’s so very cool! It is called A Thought Provoking Blog Award. I’m just so appreciative to be thought of for this award!!

The rules for all of these state that I have to write 7-ish things about myself. Since there are so many (what a wonderous problem to have! :D ) I have decided not to this time as I will be answering questions below  and also I was “leapfrogged” So will be answering those questions as well. :) I’m hopeful you will forgive me for breaking the rules this time! Instead I will use the rules above for this one too! ;)

I would like to nominate the following for A Thought Provoking Blog ~because they are the first to pop in my head for being thought provoking!

Neil ~        http://ngtolentino.wordpress.com/

Prashant ~http://justspokenthoughts.wordpress.com/

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I was given the Sunshine Award by Mondrak at http://kattermonran.com/  and was Leapfrogged/tagged by Mondrak (see below for the questions & answers). Thank you so much sweet friend for thinking of me for this. All of these awards are like huge hugs from all of you and truly brighten my life!!!

Again I would like use the same rules as above! :) I would like to nominate the following for being a bright light in my life, hence the Sunshine Award.

Rosy ~    http://sharingmemyselfandi.wordpress.com

Dory ~    http://dorysworld.wordpress.com

Boomie ~http://boomiebol.wordpress.com

Richard ~http://thelastsongiheard.wordpress.com/

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Next was an unbelieveably brilliantly fantastic award ~a real Doctor Who Award ~ The reasons behind this award are as amazing as the show (you know, I’ve already told you I’m a HUGE Doctor Who fan :) ). This is called the Regenerations Award and the nomination comes from my mom Penny ~http://thewhyaboutthis.com/2012/08/24/dont-blink/ ~That’s where she explains the nomination. And if you’re curious ( you know you are ) then click the following link for the reasons behind this award and why it’s so very special http://thelastsongiheard.wordpress.com/regenerations/ .

Here are the rules:

  1. Keep calm. Don’t blink. Firstly, you have to thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  2. You have to state that bow ties are cool. And Fez’s. Welllll… if you don’t like Fez’s, that’s okay. ~ Fez’s are cool but bow ties are even more cool :D
  3. Nominate one other blog for this award. Say thank you to that person. Just one person. It’s not a chain letter :D
  4. Post your nominee’s name on the Regenerations Award page here.
  5. Answer the following questions:
  • Who are you? ~ Hmmm…who am I…the quintessential question for all to ponder. I guess I am a girl, okay woman, who got her world turned upside down, torn to pieces, shattered and am currently putting those pieces back together. I am a mom who loves her kids more than her own life and I like to think a good human being in that I inherently love people and would do most anything for my friends. I am also a person (who I recently discovered) who has quite the temper when provoked….don’t mess with my babies (children). I AM a momma bear and I WILL fight furiously!
  • Are you happy?I am more happy now then I have been for over two years. I am grateful for my life, for my children — their good health, my mom, my family, my local friends who never left my side, and of course I am most grateful for my new amazing and consistently inspiring friends here!!
  • If you could change just one thing about yourself, right now, to make your life better, what would it be? ~ I guess I’m already doing that…making the changes I want to make without anyone so wholly unconnected to myself’s opinion! I am cherishing life with a newfound respect for how fragile and precious it is and I am working to be healthier in every aspect for a more fufilled life.
  • Who, or what, inspires you? ~ Finally, an easy question! :p My mom. She raised two kids on her own and I like to think we both grew up to be loving, respectful, caring, empathetic, honest to a fault, and great parents because we had such an amazing example!!

Now in keeping with the awards rules, I would like to nominate Mondrak at http://kattermonran.com/ for the Regenerations Award because he inspires me, he’s awesome fun, and even better he is a fellow Doctor Who fan!!! So I am hoping he will love this award, and the idea behind it, as much as I do!!

One last note…to Mondrak – Since this post is much longer than anticipated I will be adding in the Leapfrog/Tag post soonest!

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~*~My most heartfelt appreciation and gratitude to everyone who thought of me for these awards…they are so very special to me! ~*~

If I could I would nominate every single one of you for each of these beautiful awards!! You all have encouraged me, inspired me, and shone so bright on dark days. Each of you is priceless to me. Is there a priceless award? If not, someone more tech-savy than me needs to make one! ;)

Kaleidoscope…

let go dreams

~*~ What dreams may come…. I sit and ponder…. So many emotions flashing before me…inside me… Sadness…fear….loss….confusion….disillusionment… Kaleidoscope… ~*~ Building a new dream… What will it look like? It is intangible…elusive…vague… I sense it there nonetheless…. Beckoning to me… Whispering … Continue reading

Evermore…

Gratify by Robyn Lee

There on a sandy seashore… Waves crashing… Warm gentle breeze…caresses seductively… Softly blowing…playing with my hair… I sit and stare… Majesty of the sea… Escaping reality… All senses heightened… Suddenly aware of everything…and nothing… Watching…waiting… Sand between my toes…. Salty … Continue reading

One…

 One step…

One word…

One inspiration…

One blog…

One quote…

One poem….

One post….

One compliment…

One encouragement…

One more step…

One more realization…

One more action….

Bringing me closer…

One more piece…

One hope…

An entire dream being built …

By adding one…

Copyright © 2012 Christina Brownlee

The Power of Words…

“But words are things, and a small drop of ink,
Falling like dew, upon a thought, produces
That which makes thousands, perhaps millions, think.”
~ George Gordon Byron ~ 

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  Words…
Arranged just so…
Have incredible power…
To lift up…
To elicit joy…
To bring good news or bad…
To tear down walls or build them…
To heal or to hurt…
To empower or discourage…
To create love or hate…
Build trust or break it…
Words can change a persons life forever…one way or another…
Be oh so very careful with them…
They are fragile like glass and can shatter…destroy…
They can rebuild…rejoice…
Please…choose your words wisely…
Once said or written…can last forever…

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Copyright ©2012 Christina Brownlee

A Plethora of Love (Awards)

I am truly honored…to have received five incredible awards from four incredible friends with amazing blogs themselves! I am behind a bit on these and for that I apologize. I received the One Lovely Blog Award and the Thanks for Writing Award from Mondrak at http://kattermonran.com/ . The Very Inspiring Blogger Award from Kay Lynte’ at http://thinkingiswrite.wordpress.com/ . The Sunshine Award from danbalva at http://hurdlestohappiness.wordpress.com/ . And last but most certainly not least – the Reader Appreciation Award from Neil at http://ngtolentino.wordpress.com/.

I thought it would be nice to focus on something bright for this post. I have changed my Gravatar, the reasons why and more on that in a bit. I am just so very thankful for all of you. This has become my sanctuary for healing, hope, encouragement, laughter, shared journeys, and inspiration. I love how incredibly unique everyone is and how that gets expressed through each of your blogs. It is just truly awesome in every sense of the word!

This past weekend a lot of my life was laid bare and all of your response was so much more than I ever would have imagined. The love and care, concern, and genuine support was so overwhelmingly wonderous I’m still awed by it. One confession before I talk about the awards….I haven’t cried this much in a long long long time. What happens when I cry that much? Migraine lol. It’s okay…it was so worth it!!

Each of these awards is like a big hug…blog love….from all of you!

Things are still topsy-turvy and each day brings new challenges….and new rewards! I believe I am finally on the path to the future….with no one dragging me back to the past or ready to rip the rug out from under us when we least expect it. My children are all doing so much better, sleeping through the night…mostly… and well you all know about my mom! :)

So, as you can see…there is lots of love (awards) going on here…in an effort to not overwhelm myself I’ve decided to not decide! There are so very many amazingly fantasic friends…those who have been with me from the beginning and those who’ve joined my journey along the way….and those who have just found me. You all have brightened my darkest days and made me feel so very welcome here.

So, what I would very much like to do is ask you, each of you, to chose one you don’t have –one you would like–or even one (or more) you would like to share with some of your amazingly fantastic friends! I so want to share these awards (love) with all the amazing people who have really truly made my life so much brighter! And hopefully make yours brighter in return. If I could chose I would give each of you ALL of these awards. So please, please make yourself at home and grab one…or more!!

Also, Please grab — if you like, as always no pressure — the IBeLOnG award….it just signifies community and likeminded people who care for one another. No rules, no pressure. Just a beautiful statement about this incrdible wonderous community that is what it is because of each unique person that is part of the whole. Thank you for understanding and a most special thank you to those who thought of me for these awards. They are so very special to me.

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~7 Things About me ~

1) You’ve seen a current picture of me – I’ve changed my Gravatar to a picture that is better suited to the new me.

2) I’m downright GIDDY at the thought of my ex-in-laws moving to another state.

Thinking of planning a party to celebrate my new freedom from them.

3) I’ve become addicted to blogging & interacting with my cherished new friends here.

4) I’ve written poetry for the first time here recently…It is my hope to become even braver and expand my writing.

5) Despite my shattered past, I’m actually quite feisty, quirky, and love love love to laugh.

6) I could have entire conversations with lines from movies…or in song lyrics.

7) Two words -I’m ready” to take on life again. No holds barred.

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I would love if it if you choose to share the 7 things about you because I think we all find that truly fascinating! :)

Again my sincerest gratitude to you all for being such a bright light in a very dark place…for helping me rediscover myself and for helping me to be braver than I thought I could be for me. I have been strong for my family, but not for me. Thank you so very very much!

Something Wonderful Is Coming….

Okay, so I stole that line from a movie…if you know which one then I know how old you are! :D  Seriously, I have been working on something that isn’t quite ready yet…I’m hoping to have it finished and ready to post tomorrow.

I really wanted to thank you all for your love and concern from my mom’s (Penny’s) followers and mine who have gone so far above and beyond in showing love and support that I am so wonderously overwhelmed! I wanted to give back a little something…I know it couldn’t possibly compare to what you’ve given me, but it is a small token to show my extreme gratitude.

It was important for me to throw this little post in here because of the…heaviness of the my last post and the one Penny (mom) wrote. It was a beautiful experience for both of us to get it out (well not all of it, but enough) and in doing so we are able to let it go. THE most important thing now is moving on for each of us and for the children.

Sure, we’ll have our bad days…but I certainly don’t want to LIVE there!!! I know in my heart of hearts that Duane would not want us sad…he would want us to embrace all that life has to offer and enjoy every moment of it! Okay so he’d probably want me to wakeboard too, but that’s on next summer’s list…maybe lol :p

So, please take this sincere graditude and know that you, each of you, have given an incredible gift to each of us.

You are all amazing, keep being unique, keep being you….and we’ll/I’ll keep reading and being inspired by you.

Hugs and Love,

Christina ~